soph,

Time for Change!

2011-03-14T17:47:00.003+08:00

You may proceed: here!

Due to unorganized archiving and my disinterest in spending time to establish some kind of systematic order in this blog, I've decided to just start anew. So, to the handful of people who still read this (Why???): this link will no longer be in use. :)

Here, a picture of a smiling pig.

2011-02-27T23:22:00.001+08:00

Am having such a huge lady-crush right now.

I hope CL really comes here. And I hope she'll have a faux hawk then too. *__*

2011-02-24T23:32:00.003+08:00

Throughout the time that I'm writing this, I have to remind myself to: 1) look away thoughtfully from the screen and prevent my eyes from closing (thoughtfully, so I appear to be pondering upon something and my mom doesn't complain that the UV rays from the laptop are biting away at my eyeballs), and 2) don't get distracted by Modern Family.

..obviously the latter isn't going to work so I'm going to just concentrate on the first.

Reason for that is because I've been feeling so fatigued lately. I wake up and I don't feel refreshed; 30 mins later I'm singing out loud in the car with Apek, desperately trying to keep myself awake; and then by the time I reach class, I feel like dying. I get exhausted so easily. I just slept for two hours in the afternoon and I'm feeling sleepy right now already. I don't know if it's stress or pressure or both stress AND pressure and the fact that I feel somehow so discouraged this sem it takes so much effort to just pick myself and get through the day.

I guess I partially know the cause of this weariness but.. I'll just leave myself guessing so I would be a tad bit less miserable.

Other than that, it's only been a little less than a week since my sister left and it feels terrible. Well, it usually does each time she leaves. Because for me, it just means getting adjusted back to the quietness at home and by quietness, I mean not having some crazy Asian 30-somethings pester me all day to watch Modern Family and some other old Korean movie that I still have not finished watching. (But she doesn't need to know that) I think one of my somewhat 'happier' days this week was when she called back yesterday and made me play L4D2 with her and my brother. The only hiccup was my laggy internet but that didn't matter much. Sister + zombies = good times. Plus it's nice having a sister stay up with you, chatting way into the night about anything arbitrary.

So yes, I do miss her a lot. What's new.

What else that's been happening:

- Being thrown into a spiral of workload. For our lates group assignment, we've been given 6 days to do it. Six-flipping-days.

- Haven't had enough time even for myself. The few times that I do, I am usually too tired to do anything.

- Having my mind clouded with thoughts I wish I could block out and just flush down the toilet bowl.

- Been getting frustrated easily. Internally, of course. Nobody wants to look at a grouchy grandma.

I know this post sounds so glum but, it's just how I've been feeling.

And maybe that's just it. I've not been feeling happy.

2011-01-28T22:31:00.003+08:00

И Лове Иоу, Nole!!!

Australian Open finals soon.
AND the Winangun family will be arriving tomorrow.

What a great way to kick-start a happy CNY. :)

PS. it'll be an even happier one if Djokovic wins lol.

2011-01-18T21:24:00.004+08:00

I shall post this as a constant reminder to myself:

Stop stealing your mom's snacks, Soph. You're depriving the woman of her salted peanuts and bread sticks. Haih. *disapproving nod*

So I've finally adjusted back to my college schedule. Waking up an extra 15 minutes earlier everyday to spend the next 15 minutes trying to wake Apek up and then facing the evils of the morning traffic. I swear, I could possibly remember some of the same cars that are jamming with me.

Hehe. Jamming with me.

Anyway, I really.. don't feel confident with this sem. Only because we have BM and Malaysian Studies. I cannot study or write in BM to save my life. And I mean that literally. If a murderer held me hostage and said the only way I could save myself is to write a karangan about my pet fish, you'd all probably be at my funeral right about now. =(

English has always been my saving grace. I never could study any other subject as well as I could English. I love English even more than Korean and that's saying a lot. I know nuts about science or art or history but if you asked me to do a bit of research and write a paper on it, I could most likely give you a stack of papers talking about the subject and anything under the sun. My ability to crap at a wide range is very proficient. =P However, ask me to try and crap in BM and I'll write like:

Ini ialah.. krap.

So, all I can do is try and hope for the best..and right before my exam, lift up my paper to the Lord and say, "DEAR LORD, SAVE ME FROM THE WRETCHES OF THIS COUNTRY. I WANT TO LIVE HELP ME KTHXBAI" T___T

Haih. Time to get Msian Studies notes and translate them.

PS. Boys pms way more than girls who actually have pms.

내 언니 보고싶다 :'(

2011-01-12T18:36:00.002+08:00

Sis: Eh did you receive my sms about the burger phone?
Me: Yeah.
Sis: ..then why didn't you reply me??
Me: Because there's nothing to reply! You just told me about a burger phone.
Sis: Still!
Me: What am I supposed to reply?
Sis: I don't know? Like, elle-oh-elle?

2011-01-10T23:24:00.005+08:00

What up.
Hello! I'm here once again, to talk about my very awesome, uneventful life. I think, the bottom of my foot could possibly be more interesting than myself right now. Yay...Soph......

So, I haven't been writing. That depresses me. And I haven't been exactly boosting my own motivation. That depresses me more. But then, I have been reading! and that makes me happy again.

..But then I realized I'm not even halfway through my reading list. Then I'm back to being depressed.

Don't get me wrong, it's not like I haven't been trying. I mean, I open a new document, think, type a few words and look out of my window contemplatively, practising that thoughtful look they usually have in dramas while the guy with a slightly gayish voice sings in the background, hoping that the slight breeze might carry in a gust of inspiration.

Unfortunately, I spend even more time highlighting and clicking 'delete' on what I wrote till it was almost like my fingers were having its on aerobics class. And I did not achieve the thoughtful look they usually have in dramas while the guy with a slightly gayish voice sings in the background.

Woe is me.

Well, at least the result is that I tried. And I now have healthier fingers.

But anyway! Recently, I:

have started watching My Girlfriend is a Gumiho. Probably one of the BEST kdramas ever, as opposed to the many draggy and over-emotional ones that have a ton of hesitating "Should I? Should I not? Am I in love? Why don't you love me? Why does Spongebob only have two teeth?" moments. Plus, I have been introduced to a new love - No Min Woo! I apologize to Lee Joon for now part of my love goes to him. He plays the piano, guitar and the drums. and he has GUGU EYES. :O I hyperventilate.

am beginning to greedily yearn for new things. Like the Samsung Wave. (I blame Daphne) And the MacBook Pro. And the Amazon Kindle. And another external harddisk. Too many things, too little money. No. Wait. I have the money. Too many things, too little will to actually spend on them.

have been happy :) Which is saying quite a lot, coming from me. I've actually been getting up, having my quiet time, and not feeling like I totally wasted yesterday. I guess my results for last sem contributed to that. Also, I've been trying to spend more time with my parents. Mom at a laptop, me at a laptop, dad watching TV. But we're in the same room. It's awesome. And a little something else. :)

FOUND MIN WOO'S TWITTER. HAHAHA EVERYTHING'S IN KOREAN BUT I DON'T CARE

have decided to lay off fast food as much as I can. Maybe I'll only allow myself to indulge like two or three times a month, or less. Seriously, the obesity caused by it is starting to freak me out. It's like ordering a fat guy in a box.

Oh! Also, my Korean has been improving. :D
I am now less-than-a-quarter-fluent in the language that I shall propose to Min Woo in.

I'm sorry, Lee Joon.

2011-01-03T00:12:00.004+08:00

Resolution #8 - Complete reading 50 books this year.

You read right! That's an estimated four or five books a month. I've neglected my reading list of last year for far too long, I think I barely read much from half of the year onwards. It's so... depressing. It's probably why I've not been writing much either. Damn college and the life it sucks out of you.

I'd say more than 50 but considering class schedule, I'll have to stick with this rate. At the end of every month, I'll list down the books I've finished reading. Help me out and recommend me good ones? :)

So, let all be but lost! I shall accomplish at least this. :D

2011-01-01T11:35:00.005+08:00

happy new year's, wonderfuls!
May you all eat, drink and be merry! cause I know I did on New Year's Eve. :)
"to be the most I can be in any given situation" was the only resolution I made this year and I actually do think I managed to live up to that in more than a handful of situations. I have God to thank for that, really. I don't mean to come off as overly-religious or whatnot but.. my faith has not been shaken. He's probably the reason that I can truly smile and, the cause of who I am today. I'm not perfect, no waaay. I have more flaws than you could imagine and I've made so many mistakes in the past months but... I've pulled through and I still try to make the best of it.

So yeah, I've made it to 2011 alive and well. YAY! \(^__^)/

Now to make new resolutions and hopefully, I'll stick with them--or some--for the next twelve months. Can't wait to see what this year brings, :) Cheers!

****
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." --Jeremiah 29:11

These Are The Best Days

2010-12-30T19:48:00.006+08:00

Despite how traditional and same-old Christmas is, I don't think I'll ever ever get sick of it. I'll never get sick of Christmas carols or family dinners or exchanging gifts with friends. Of course, it'd be 101 times better with snow but ah.. who's counting, :) And my Christmas is SUPER traditional. Exact same thing every year. It'll be, family dinner > aunty's house > huge feast consisting of turkey, lamb, roast chicken and salad > carols > presents > everyone talking randomly while my uncle sleeps on the floor at the corner.

Lol. Such is life.

And I'm very thankful for the gifts this year too though I've been getting an overload of soft toys, o__o. Each one still bears meaning nonetheless. So, I likey!

The best gift I got this year is probably from my parents -- permission to go PD with the gang. Bawwww, you guys are too awesome :') Cause despite the polluted beach, polluted sea water, polluted food and probably polluted everything else... I had the time of my life there. Now that dirty place holds so many dear memories lol wth.

Highlights of the Port Dickson trip:

the beach, obviously.

First thing we did when we got there was run to the beach like happy little children, :D

and catch helpless crabs, :DD

The failed sunset that Jon and Terry made us go down second time to watch.

iPad addiction.

Yes, the Lai's brought their iPads and our nights were filled with Tap Tap Revenge, Fruit Ninjas, Hangman and killing stick figures by smashing them on the ground. :D

awesome seafood dinners.

Ooooh the fish, omnomnom.

banana boat.

Ohmylord, this was.. gruelling. Grace and I were enjoying so much until they tipped us off and if having giant guys falling on you isn't enough, climbing back onto the boat was no kidding. It was so damn slippery. And they tipped us like three times, o____o

Still, fun experience. Next, jet skiing woo!

pet crabs.

Hannah and her crab, Crabby.

Grace and her crab, Patrick.

Jon and Terry's crab that they caught at 4AM. And I was with them. Dearlord.

poker games.

They just couldn't get enough.

my piggy.

That everyone (BRYAN) kept stealing. How can you not love my piggy. It's so full of win ^_^v

southern comfort.

Oh, how can we forget the Southern Comfort.

The source of everyone getting high, pretty much.

lol, so attractive.

the last night and day.

...have got to be the best and highlight of my whole year, really. It's something even words describing it wouldn't do the justice. It was a compiled number of moments that I'd only usually dream of.

Like talking to Julian on the balcony.

Like Jon making me climb over a damn high gate on the stairs.

Like finding glowing planktons on the wet sand.

Like watching Jon and Terry attempt to catch a crab at 3/4AM.

Like sitting in between my closest friends on a bench overlooking the whole sea and just above were stars.

And the next morning, spending an hour by myself on the same bench.

Perfect moments, I tell you. I'd give anything to relive them, :)

I didn't end up regretting a single second. I'd say it was the best way to end the year even if it's not really the end just yet. All in all, I'd have to be the most grateful person right now. I don't remember a period of time when I've felt this happy in 2009.

Thank You God, for this year. Thank You really.

2010-12-30T13:25:00.001+08:00

"Here in this diary, I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs; and that unspoken feeling..
Of knowing that right now is all that matters."

*updates soon, :)

2010-12-21T11:31:00.000+08:00

1. Last sem passed by pretty quick, :/ Maybe it was because our assignments were already given out during the first and second week already. Or maybe because we were either having too much fun/stress/drama/talking sessions/stuff. Whatever it is, next thing we all knew- ONE MONTH AWAY FROM 2011. Now it's just two weeks. I'm quite excited :D

2. Moral paper was a fracking pain in the backside, seriously. All of us (and by all, I really mean Daph and me) concentrated on normative statements and theories and whatnot. After all, it is MORAL kan. But in the end, the paper--including the short and long essays--was mostly about ISLAM, HINDUISM and BUDDHISM. We were like, stun....

.....WPROAJGKAOIHTKALHJTALB, Y U DO DIZ?!?!?!!

They secretly hate us, really. The Christian question didn't even make any sense. We do not have three kinds of souls, tqvm.

3. To be honest, I don't really feel like I'm in the Christmassy mood. Just five days away too! I need to get a Christmas tree. Or plant. D:

4. I want the Amazon Kindle for Christmas present, mummy daddy. *cough*

5. I can't wait for next weeeeeeek!!!

2010-12-20T00:03:00.002+08:00

It's the HOLIDAYS, wuuu! \(^__^)/
I'd say it feels like forever but, not really actually. This sem flew by pretty fast.
It kinda sucks because we're all gonna go through the "missing you" phase all over again. Even if they don't.. I will, D:
So I'll definitely have more time to update now. Wheee, pictures soon! :)

Stuff In November

2010-12-05T09:23:00.005+08:00

There were moments in college that have become hard to forget cause they've become moments that are stuck with us. And it doesn't get old no matter how many times we bring it back up again. :)

Having Apek as a constant companion wherever I went.
And getting so used to having someone call me "Mommy mommy" everytime lol.

Violating Cherrie's pencil box that she just loves to poke me with.
That was fun. I need to tear out the ears next.

Our frequent visits to the Indonesian icecream man.
I like how he smiles when he sees us. And how he smiles even bigger when he sees Apek. *eyebrow wiggles* But I think he needs to learn how to press in the icecream deeper into the cone. I've lost count of how many times all of our scoops almost fell out.

Sleeping over in Wayee's house. I like how I influence people to not sleep at sleepovers. :D Also, learning Kelvin's clap-and-bow dieting method.

...it's not working.

Presentations went by well despite rushed preparations and stuff.
Failed statement: I will NOT do assignments at the very last-minute. I guess we'll never learn.

A famous love story happening in college. It's too sweet, really. ;)

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And then there was the papa bear's birthday.
It's amazing how different and alike we are at the same time. We're alike in a sense that our views on almost everything are on the same wavelength. I learn so much from him and I like that he's so realistic and down-to-earth. I have to thank him for not letting me be naive and be the, somewhat "matured person", that I hope I am today.
As for our differences.. that's for me to know. :P

Hehe. I still don't like your specs.

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Our annual VBS! Slightly anti-climatic compared to the previous years but fun, nonetheless.

I learn so much from and through kids. And I feel sad when I see that their innocence is starting to deteriorate at young ages. Primary school kids at my age used to be peaceful and talk about socks and play dinosaur or batu seremban. Now, they talk about boyfriends and girlfriends and crushes and even sex.

Can I slap them pls.

The smallest four year old I've ever seen.
I love him. He loves me. All is good with rainbows and cookies and the world. :)

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The Return of the ~~King~~ Wife.

I WAS SO HAPPY I COULD'VE DIEDDDD. AM STILL HAPPY. WILL BE SAD WHEN SHE LEAVES BUT... YAH STILL HAPPY. :D It always feels like forever and I miss our gay moments! Now we can have MOAR! Yayayay.

And, well, the other stuff that happened in November. Mm, I can't say not important but well.. they're just stuff. This month will bring more and then the next thing you know, it's 2011. Gosh.

So, a little about me. I'm confused. I'm quite contented but not as much because of the confusion. I'm still trying to be more hard-working. I'm still fairly a perfectionist. I don't really like being me right now. I'm currently pressuring my dad to quickly redo my room cause I'm getting very sick of it. I'm very much flustered right now. I've made so many mistakes in the past few months. And I hate the weather.

But hey.. that's life.

December, hi!

2010-12-04T12:50:00.002+08:00

This MV made me lol. :D
But anyway, YES HI DECEMBER, YOU'RE HERE SO SOON I LOVE CHRISTMASSSS.
I promise I'll try to update more this month. Though I think only a handful of people still come back here to read. Tsktsk. Fail Soph fail.

G'bye!

Hello.

2010-11-24T21:10:00.006+08:00

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So, here's an update telling you that I pretty much, hate November yeah.
I don't even know why I bother anymore.

PS. Sketching 12 various apple designs can be very invigorating.

2010-11-17T14:33:00.001+08:00

There's always a reason to smile. I think.
C'mon, Soph.

Cooler Than You? ;D

2010-11-13T20:50:00.003+08:00

How we get through moral class on Saturday mornings:-

Oh yeah, we're so totally gonna ace our exam on Monday.

Beep

2010-11-12T00:35:00.005+08:00

"It is, ultimately impossible for a robot to develop feelings.
In short- they have none at all."

Can I be a robot pls kthx.

PS. Happy birthday, Vonn. I miss you :)

2010-11-09T23:09:00.003+08:00

0211
Comm. Presentation Day

For one, I love presentation days because everyone just looks 10 times more awesome. :)

Siew Sheng and I coincidentally wore the exact same thing :O

0711
Children's Day Party

Aunty Mei Leng's glorious foooood.

And lastly, my hensem boyyyy ;D

Can I Has A Son Prz?

2010-11-07T23:54:00.002+08:00

Children are so awesome, it's amazing sometimes.
I can totally understand how mothers get through the toughest of days.
Because just one hug or "I love you" from a little boy or girl can make 24 difficult hours, and more, disappear just like that.
And I'll never get adoption centres or orphanages. I'll never get how parents can leave their child so easily, all by themselves; and, i'm definitely not talking about parents who have financial problems.

Maybe that's why, while other girls are planning their perfect weddings-
i'm planning the perfect future for my kids. o_o

Pacman & Nga Choi's Birthday

2010-11-05T11:32:00.003+08:00

I have very itchy hands, period. Ever since I started college and found out that most of my classrooms have bright orange, yellow and pink/purple walls, I just NEEDED to do something with it. Especially, being an avid reader of Katie Sokoler (I love you @__@). So I came up with an idea and planned with Daphne. This was how it was supposed to go:

1. Go to college way early
2. Get to class and stick the deco
3. Go eat <--- possibly the most important thing

4. Pretend to be surprised along with everyone else

Pretty good eh? :D But then... we didn't consider the defects of our plan. For one, we totally forgot that there could be a class before ours so we couldn't stick the stuff early. That was actually the only thing that affected our plan -.- So it turned out to be more like this:

1. Got to college early

2. Nandos was still closed ;__; but we quickly finished up some stuff there

3. Got to class. Realized there was a class before ours and we had to wait till 12

4. Ran away from our classmates when we saw them from afar

5. Hid in Cold Storage and ate bread

6. Hid in Room 1 until the other class was over

7. FINALLY went into room 2 and locked our juniors outside

8. Stuck the design on the wall

Yeeeah. A lot of sneaking around had to be done. In the end, it was worth it. Everyone liked it, including our lecturer. :D We kinda left it there afterwards so, hopefully we don't get in trouble?

But Daph and I were mainly waiting for the boy of the day - Kelvin! Pacman was just.. mini surprise #1. Mini surprise #2 was...

the SIGN! Which he did not wear to 1u. Angerface >:(

Mini surprise #3 - Cake!

And that was about it.

It was a pretty good day, even with extra class.
As for classroom designs... who knows when we'll strike next. >:)

2010-11-01T10:17:00.001+08:00

Apparently, no one gets me.

No one gets me at all.

Reminder:- Soph has feelings too.

What's The Haps 2

2010-10-29T18:44:00.004+08:00

I ARE TOO LAZY TO UPDAAATE D: I'm not even sure if I still have readers or not because, I've not checked or anything. Sigh, such failure at blogging I've become.

1810
What happens during moral classes: Nothing. Nothing at all.
Especially when you get a sub lecturer who insists on everything in BM.

also, my first time webcamming with Roberts that day :D

1910
Woke up extra early at 7am, just to make breakfast for my ah gong and Elaine.
Tomato bruschetta! Omnomnom. Gardenia trumps High 5 bread, forevaaaa.

2310
Joined a "study session" in Starbucks with Darren, Vic and Kim.
Conclusion- no studying was done. But the Starbucks was awesome.

2410
Did a whole lot of browsing through fashion photos on this day,
cause I really wanted to revamp my wardrobe. Basically throw out all my old stuff which is, A LOT. I get a lot of pass-me-downs, okay. It's usually what the youngest gets. =/

I also realized that my fashion taste is so...one kind.

2510
I can has no icecream man =(

=((

2610
I drove up to Ampang lookout point. IN A FRIGGIN' KANCIL.
WHO'S YO' DADDYYYY?!

It was seriously quite a fun road trip though, considering the fact that I've never even driven near KL before. I wouldn't mind doing it again. :D

It was worth it anyway. The view from up there was amazing :)

2710
Got served by my sifu.

OH yeah!!

I Know That,

2010-10-23T00:30:00.003+08:00

1. I fail at shopping

2. I always regret not buying things that I really want

3. But I never regret still having money in my pocket

4. I am totally not a 'dress' person

5. My throat suddenly feels really swollen. Soph don't like. Don't like at all.

6. I miss my car so much I actually enjoy driving my friend's car a lot

7. I pretty much suck at updating my blog now

8. I've been eating a lot of salad this month

9. I am not prepared for prom. At all.

10. We are just two months away from 2011

Your Joy, My Strength

2010-10-21T00:44:00.007+08:00

We pose in front of water dispensers, oh yeah.

Sometimes, I've really gotta be thankful for the temporary moments where I get to smile and laugh about the littlest things like I've had too much crack for breakfast.
So that the other moments- the ones when I'm tired out, emotionally... it doesn't seem so big anymore. But there's no running away from that, I know it.
I know what won't get me down today will get me down tomorrow. I know I'm a scared person. I know I face insecurities only I can deal with. I know I'm slowly being dragged down into fear of being vulnerable or even developing the smallest of feelings towards someone. I don't even understand it myself.

But I also know that situations are like gravity- it always comes back around. It's what keeps you going during the situation that matters, and I definitely know what that is, in my life. I rarely talk about it; it's like a secret candle I keep behind my back and I never let anything snuff it out.

It's what makes me truly smile and genuinely feel calm within myself, even when problems and troubles are like rocks being thrown at me. It's what reminds me to always be thankful. It's what I want to show the people around me and, it's what motivates me to be a better person than I was yesterday.

It's my little secret that I'll share.
This one's for me. And this one's for you too.

"Do not grieve,

for the JOY of the Lord is your strength."

-Nehemiah 8:10

Monday Blues

2010-10-18T11:26:00.005+08:00

What up Squishyface!

Monday blues. Why? Because another week has gone by and my face still looks like it's been shit on by a squirrel. I feel like I'm 15 again, worrying over pimples and redness and whatever else. And now Daphne's not replying me so I don't know whether I can go to Nandos and eat my salad which I've been craving for the past week now. The world is really cruel, it is.

so yesterday,

...I got another free men's shirt. And it's blue. And it says England. :D

...a weird uncle (..okay, I think maybe he was around late 20s or possibly, 30s) came and chatted with me before I taught the kids' dance class in the gym. He was all "hohoho! I think I came too early for the yoga. Can I see the schedule? You look really young for a teacher! Where do you study? Which church do you go to? Do I or do I not look like I've been inflicted with a bad case of paedophilia? :D" ..Ok no, I'm exaggerating but it was weird. And he came in right after I finished too so I quickly rushed out. =/

...Jeremy joined us for dinner and then we played scrabble after. I've forgotten how fun oldschool board games are. He also tried to invent a word called "dreet".

...I skyped with Roberts and made him do lala poses. Yay me.

...we drove past my hot Canadian neighbor and I swear all of us turned and stared at him at the same time. And there were five of us in the car. OHMAIBBQSAUCE, DAMNHOTWOI. =X

*hyperventilates*

I still want my Caesar salad. :(

What Went Up In Genting

2010-10-16T19:26:00.004+08:00

From the mall,

To Ripley's Museum,

To the garden outside the hotel,

To the bus station to go home,

It was really the most fun I've had in a long time, :)
Despite the screw-ups towards the end of the trip. Like, the cable car closed at 7:30 and by the time we got to the ticket booth, the last bus down was already gone so we couldn't get to our second bus back to 1u. And we had to wait another hour for another bus back to Titiwangsa, followed by monorail, lrt and taxi.

I think we used every mode of public transport that night. Wah, wallet kena burned. But! I guess that's what made it memorable. :)

Hi And Bye

2010-10-13T22:53:00.005+08:00

0910
Genting! Running around in the clouds...literally ;)

...more pictures on that later.

1010
I can has new phone nao!? after 3 billion yearsss...

1210
What I have to do in order to keep Daph and I awake during moral class,

1310
I CAN HAS iPAD NAO?!

teehee, jokes. I look like ker-rap in the morning :D

And, breakthrough!

First time seeing Kelvin buy an icecream FOR HIMSELF. =O

@Vonn

2010-10-06T11:05:00.002+08:00

She already has.

HAHA. :P

What's The Haps

2010-10-04T22:15:00.001+08:00

So, some new things:

1) YEY. I CAN HAS FRENZ.

2) I'm still in-progress with the 30 letters meme. Though that's not exactly new and I should probably get on to the next letter soon...

3) The thing that's been keeping me so occupied nowadays is KH2!! (ahem, Kingdom Hearts) Yah, I've decided to replay the game all the way from the start and I shall finish it 101%. It's been like a craving to do it ever since I found my old files which consisted of both KH and KH2 visual art books, OSTs, videos, etc lah... oooh, I can feel my inner geek bubbling with joy. :D

4) On Saturday, it was shopping day with Zoe and the Lai brothers in Sungei Wang. I usually feel like a boy during shopping trips because I barely buy anything since I'm not actually bent on spending. Plus, I don't shop for dresses or heels or "pretty things". But with Terry there I just felt all the more worse. I am clearly not made for shopping. If the economy depended on me to contribute, everyone would be sleeping in toilets and stealing dog scraps, srsly.

Zoe and I in our fanciful shorts.
You laike? You laaaaike?

Well we didn't. HEHH.

5) This is so retarded but I kinda miss work. :/ Okay not work per se, although some of it I DO actually miss because it took me a whole lot of getting used to... More like, I'm missing the people at work who used to kacau me all the time. It was disappointing to have to suddenly leave just like that but well. Shit happens. Life goes on. The sky's still blue. People still eat cookies. What are'ya gonna do about it? :/

6) My creative thinking lecturer is teh AWESOMEZ! First time in class, my mind didn't start drifting off after an hour or so to food. I swear, food thought can penetrate ANY interesting talk that's going on. But not today. Today was goood. :)

5) My face is plagued and blemished and destroyed and....PLAGUED. I would stab my face if it did not cause me to hurt and die. Honestly the worst kind of gene to inherit is the pimply kind. WHY GOD, WHY.

7) My mum seems to be very proud of the fact that my sister and I have quite a high alcohol tolerance level. And now she's getting excited about golf with my dad. I'm not sure if I should be worried.

8) TAIM TO PLAY GAAAME! :D :D

iDoodle

2010-09-30T14:06:00.005+08:00

We really do study, I swear.

Day Twelve: Someone Who's Caused You Pain

2010-09-29T20:23:00.003+08:00

Dear person(s) who's caused me pain before,

I forgive you. And personally... I don't really remember who did what. o_o I don't harbour these kind of feelings or hold grudges and whatnot. I don't believe in doing that and I often don't respect people who do. Well, depending on the situation of course. But other than that, I believe in PEACE AND LOVE AND UNICORNS AND ICECREAM! ♥

So like, yeah. I don't know who's this letter to. :P

Picture of the day!

Day Eleven: A Deceased Person

2010-09-27T12:41:00.000+08:00

Dear Mr LYV,

Hello. It's been a while.

I actually considered not making this letter to you since I've written so much to you already but, who are we kidding right. How many also won't be enough lah, kan? :P And to be honest, I don't like the word "deceased". I don't take likely to it. There's just something about it that screams "cease to exist" and as far as I know, you're still a part of us as much as before. Ah well. English. What are ya gonna do about it.

You probably do know that I still often think about you. Heck, I'm sure we all do. It doesn't come every single day or I don't just sit around and glum over it anymore. It's more of a passing thought and most of the time, it makes me smile to myself... and makes my dad think I'm having a psychotic spaz moment sitting right in front of him while having lunch. I don't exactly know how to describe it, but you've become an aspect to me that has helped me learn and notice things. I'll have to thank you for that later on.

I know someone, a very close someone, who is all kinds of realistic and logical. He knows life and its disappointments and facts and etc. And that's just it, he's all about facts. In more than one way, I can relate to him. UNFORTUNATELY though... he is so logical to the point that the value of people evades him. And by that I mean, friendships and relationships. He's oblivious to it and believes solely in "you gain some, you lose some". So, a friend passes. Fine, you're sad. But later on, you forget and would've realized that your time and energy was wasted on being sad.

That last line didn't and will never, ever make sense to me. It doesn't, actually.

Because in your case, Vern, I've not forgotten and will not. In 3 months, I made a good friend at work and now, I may not see him again or rarely, and I already feel like I lost something. How much more you.

But you know, I'm not gonna sit here and wish and wish and sulk and all.. You probably would've gone "Eeee, why you miss me o.o" Haha. But I do, I really do.

So I hope you're doing great up there.
I'll see you soon :)

Day Ten: Someone You Don't Talk To As Much As You'd Like

2010-09-26T14:33:00.002+08:00

Hello, yet another letter that is impossible to base on just one person. I can confidently say that there are way more than a handful of people I'd care to have a conversation with, at least once. Not because she smells nice (...I like people who smell good- no judgement) or he looks really good cause if he did, I'd be busy conversing with my EYES, if you know what I mean. OH YEAAH, *wiggles*

No, none of those obvious things concerning the physical, but because of what they have to say. I'm interested to know what they think, how they think -- life from their point of view. Nothing too deep but just enough to make me feel that, perhaps humanity is not getting as shallow as a quarter-filled clogged up sink. I admire people who think, who speak their mind. It shows that they care enough to see beyond the exterior of things.

I do have a few fellas in mind now. Some of which I'm not friends with at all.

So dear you,

if there should ever come a day that I'd get a chance to know you or talk to you, I guess you can say that I'm anticipating that day. People like you have a way of fascinating me. I love hearing people's views and whether I agree with it or not, I learn more as I listen. It's funny cause I find that I know more about myself while I'm getting to know the other person.

Oh yeah. Don't try to be someone else. Stay you.

Cause you're awesome.

...irrelevant but I likey this pic lol. Sleepytime!

♥

2010-09-25T17:44:00.003+08:00

*lying down, waving arms and legs*

"Are you pretending to make snow angels, Jaeda?"

"No lah, mummy.I'm making ice Jesus."

The Next Part

2010-09-23T11:44:00.004+08:00

Work.
Just when I thought I've found my rightful place at work and realized that it's totally okay to just be myself in order to be closer to the others there, something screwy-uppy just had to blow up in my face.

Last week, I called my manager to ask her to change the timing of my shifts and since I was already on the phone with her, I let her know that I'm not sure WHEN I could work next week onwards. I assume she was busy so she just said, "Oh, okay. You come in first la." So I thought I could talk about it but so happen on the days I worked, she wasn't there. Then the new schedule came out and, hey presto! My name wasn't in it. My friends all came up to me with the same expression: YOU QUIT ALREADY?!

The next day I went to Zara to straighten things out and apparently, my manager heard that I said I CAN'T work anymore next week onwards. I was like... stun. Then she told me she'd arrange the schedule and call me but up to now she hasn't. Dearlord, I feel like I quit my job without actually, you know.. quitting.

Now I'm left to wonder if I still have my job or not. I shall be gracious and patient and not be totally frustrated.

BLASPHEMY, ZARA. I HOPE YOU BURN AND DIE.

This is Jeff and his beloved Patrick.

Chin Mun, the crazy Chinese girl.
Actually.. dua-dua pun gila lah. :P

College.
SECOND SEM HAS BEGUUUUN! It was so refreshing and high-ing to finally return to college after our lengthy holidays. Plus I was excited to see familiar and NEW faces too. Nehehehe, juniors! We don't have enough of them. I wanted an army of juniors. D:

My pretty son and his weird, V mohawk thingy.

Hello Kenneth! I like your shirt :D

Mmhm, life is starting to get busy again. It's bittersweet but I'm ready to see where the next few months take me. After all, it's already so close to the end of 2010... anything could happen. :D

P/S: I think, there's something wrong with me.

Day Nine: Someone You Wish You Could Meet

2010-09-22T01:33:00.004+08:00

Umm, I thought about this for quite some time and I've figured that I can't settle with just one person. So I just decided to make a list. There are myriads of people and even, KINDS of people I'd want to meet and to shorten down the list still ends up to be a lot. So this is the shortest of the shortest already and I'm pretty sure I left out a whole lot more people.

Rain

Lee Joon

Jim Parsons

Tobey Maguire

Topher Grace

Aaron Johnson

Rino Nakasone

Michael Flatley

Lauren Gottlieb

Bryan Tanaka

Wade Robson

Kate Forsyth

Frank Peretti

Stephen Colbert

Jason Mraz

Daniel Campos

Peter Jackson

Nobuo Uematsu

Masashi Hamauzu

Katie Sokoler

Ryan Higa

My future husband

This is what I could come up with, with my dead brain at this time.

...I know, a very weird list. For a very weird person. ;D

Day Eight: Your Favorite Internet Friend

2010-09-19T12:40:00.001+08:00

Greetings and salutations! You will never read this! :D

Although you could but I'm never going to give you my blog link anyway cause.. our friendship only goes thus far and I personally don't think you should know anymore. Not until we magically meet up or something, which I doubt would happen. I think. *sadface. Besides, we accomplish way more through our sporadic conversations. Yay us!

I still remember how we met -- through the most retarded website ever, which I shall not disclose because that would diminish my non-existent, imaginary and self-made reputation. :P I remember you messaging me and me saying "I love Elves too!" and WOOSH! MAGIC PANDAS!

Out of all the "internet friends" I made--which were only three--you're probably the only one I could genuinely dub as my friend. The only one I went so far as to actually talk to about life, goings-on, etc. I'm guessing there are probably more of you out there but I don't trust risk-taking in befriending people on the internet that much now, OBVIOUSLY. Plus there are only so many caucasian people you meet who really, sincerely just want to be friends for the sake of… nothing else. No 'secret, second intentions' or you know, want to come my house and stab me cause your name isn't actually Steve and you're actually a serial killer up in… Greenland.

NOBODY KNOWS PEOPLE FROM GREENLAND OKAY. D:

But back to point, you're pretty awesome. You're different and it's probably cause you're an Elven-loving, fantasy manic, very humorous guy (omg now to think about it, no wonder I found you so entertaining. Which other guy loves Elves and fantasy?!). Plus you're not racist against Asians which is an obnoxious growing sentiment, especially in Australia so, cookie points for you! :D

Other than that, I have nothing more because I think I've already said it all.
Thank you for being my friend. :)

P/S: I rebooted my Tumblr.

Day Seven: Your Ex

2010-09-16T15:49:00.005+08:00

Dear Mister Potato!

Yes, I've decided to call you that because it just came to my mind and it sounds so catchy. :D MMHM, this is a letter to you cause you're the only one and even if there were another, I think I'd still choose to write a letter to you instead. (Just in case your wondering gets the better of you- no, I do not have another -.-)

I liked us. By that, I mean that I like how we were. To me, we stood out.. somehow. And it's funny cause we didn't even do much; not like we could anyway, we were practically children minus the diapers. We couldn't drive so we couldn't date. We couldn't go anywhere exactly cause we didn't have enough money to waste away. We couldn't shout it to the world because my mom probably would've killed me, raised me back to life and then killed me the second time. For us, the months just flew by. It was so simple and direct -- just two people, a label, and a few witnesses. Then again, I guess that's how it is when you're way younger. It was all simplicity just, seeing everything as it was in plain black and white. In more than one way, I miss that. When you grow up, there are just more complications which often are just miniscule things that make us tick. So, in retrospect, it would just be darngosh awesome if we all could stay 5 years old and be freaking cute. ^_^v

Having said that, I like how we are now too. When people tell me you can't be good friends with your ex's, I just wanna be all "IN YO' FACE! :D" because it can be if you make it to be, yes? It only won't work if you don't put in the extra effort or if you just.. don't care. I'm glad we got past everything and I'm glad I decided to brave it all and IM you after a whole year of, nothing. Trust me, it wasn't easy to. I think Roanne was quite proud of me for doing so, :P

Eventhough I've told you this before, I'll tell you again- I don't regret anything and I don't wish to turn back time to change whatever happened either. Because I believe everything in the past was just a build-up to where we are today and probably, it's what's made it possible for us to be this close too.

Looking at how far we've come now... we'll be fine, for many years to come, I think. :)

P/S: I LIKE CHEEEEZ.

Day Six: A Stranger

2010-09-15T14:13:00.001+08:00

Dear you,

Here I am, back at where I was back in May, thinking about you. I wrote a blogpost about you that you will never get to read but what the hey -- I write about what's significant to me and currently, you seem to be that significance. You have been for many a month now and it took me that span of time to finally comprehend why that is.

Everyone has a motivation for thought. It's the small push that gets you off the cliff and diving into the pool of your mind. That initiates creativity and imagination; that initiates whatever makes you get going for the day. And that motivation can take any form as it depends on the person. For example, one could look at a particluar kind of flower and realize that its color, design, the array of the petals and anything else, has struck him as entrancing and could be part of a bigger picture. So he turns that into a story or a painting or an architectural design -- ANYTHING. With that, the flower has taken a form as a motivation. And when that happens, it usually sticks with you for quite a while. It's not easy to get rid of inspiration when you collide with it. It's like after you eat the best chocolate chip cookie in the world... you won't forget it, trust me.

My point is, you're that motivation to me. I couldn't exactly put my finger on what you meant to me until Roanne brought it up during one of our midnight chats and then it hit me -- you're precisely that. Whenever you come across my mind, I think of more people, more scenarios, more ideas. You're like a breath of fresh air and I have to hand it all to how unique you are in such a small way, compared to others.

I must sound like an insane, little girl especially since you're so much older and I practically got so excited like high on crack when i finally saw you again the other day, crossing the street. WEARING DIFFERENT CLOTHES. YOU EVEN GOT A NEW POUCH. DEAR LORD. IS IT THE APOCALYPSE?

Seriously though, I know no one will understand this, but I just find you so fascinating and awesome. And you are. You are an awesome motivation because, you got me writing after what seemed like eons.

So I shall, conclude with a thank you. Thank you for being an inspiration.

And thank you.. for being an effect in my life. ;)

P/S: When I searched for "stranger" photos, I found a lot of old men. o_o

Ted Dekker goodiesss

2010-09-15T11:26:00.003+08:00

So the papa bear just came back from Australia yesterday,
and along with him came my precious Ted Dekker's Circle Trilogy that my sis got for me.
But I already have a long awaited reading list.

So I have to

Finish

These

Books

...by the end of the year.

I love my life.

Chup!

2010-09-13T22:56:00.003+08:00

Okay so, let me take a break from my letter-writing to just, update about something else; something about life! I have, really been appreciating it a tad bit more recently. Just seeing, eating, admiring, thinking, dreaming... I do it all even while I'm occupied with something else.

I guess I've reached a point where I've become desperate. Desperate to see the bigger picture or detail in every single thing. When I look at people, places, objects around me, I don't want that to just be it. If you learn to observe, you'll see that all of it has a deeper meaning. As for me, I love watching people. I love, seeing their reactions and imagining up my own scenarios about them. I love noticing how unique each person is and being amazed that, I could look at a hundred people in a day and realize that none of them look the same. That's usually what I do on a lazy, naught-else-to-do afternoon on my balcony, just looking at life down at the swimming pool or walking around in the mall. Or even during work.

Ohoho.. they don't know about the scary, asian girl watching them. >=D

But yes- living. That's basically what I'm trying to do. Anywho! Today was one of those hang-out days at Vonn's place with Zoe. I've missed that a lot. Not having actual plans whatsoever and just being together. I've said this to a friend before, I told him that, no matter how many more friends you make through the years, you'll always know the ones who make you feel like you're at home. And I think I have an idea who those are. ;)

At the baking supplies shop, I snapped this picture of Zoe before the lady exclaimed, "No taking pictures here!" because, you know... we'd totally steal her copyrighted design of white chocolate blocks. -.-

After that, it was back home to pig out on...

...KIMCHI CHEESE RAMYEON! :D

So if you asked me.. it was a day well spent. :)

P/S: I really don't get the hate on Justin Bieber, seriously. He has good vocal range, he can dance, AND he plays the drums. I mean, I'm not gonna start doodling Mrs Bieber all over my notebook but the guy does have it pretty good.

Day Five: Your Dreams

2010-09-08T20:17:00.001+08:00

Dear you, the impossible,

Ever since as young as I can remember, I've only wanted to be two things in life. The first, everyone knows, is to be a writer. To be able to write whenever I want, whatever I want, whenever and however. I knew this since I picked up to read my first proper book, which was probably an Enid Blyton one. I fell in love with words. Like how, one could put them together and construct sentences so.. exquisitely, and in ways that even one word could convey a whole paragraph's worth of expression. Through my eyes, English is amazing.

The second is you (and what almost everyone doesn't know), my ultimate want, my love, my dream -- and sadly, the unachievable. Or so I think. It's been like a secret dream of mine for too many a year to count and only few know about it. I think it's mostly cause, when I've mentioned it to the few, all I get back is... well, what can only be translated as, "Meh." And especially when it's parents who give you the same kind of answer, it just makes me feel that it's all the more improbable and that it's like the same as saying "Mummy, I want to be a princess when I grow up."

I can only live through the days count the if's.

If only I had somewhere I could improve and enhance whatever I have now.. somewhere I could actually learn MORE or even just, learn.

If only I wasn't born here, in a place lacking of opportunities for what I want.

If only I hadn't stopped.

If only if only if only...

Ah well, I can only hope to continue doing what I do and maybe, just maybe, even in some small way, one day my dream can take flight.

Day Four: Your Siblings / Closest Relative

2010-09-07T12:23:00.005+08:00

Dear Two Nutty Females I Share The Same Blood With,

..I love you. Goodbye.

HEHEHE, :)

Sometimes it takes me a while to step back and just realize like- whoa. God has blessed me so much just by giving me you two. Or technically, giving me to you. :P Not a lot of people get to be this close with their siblings and it often makes me frustrated when the people around me don't know how to appreciate someone who could, possibly be the best friend of your life. For me, I so happen to have two and I could not appreciate you both any more than I already do now.

Siblings argue, siblings have their little tiffs and silent treatments come by every now and then. But they never last long because we can never not talk to each other. How can you avoid the people who are so much, a part of your everyday? More than once does my day feel odd without you in it.

And then you moved away and it got WEIRDER. Especially since you were practically like my second mother, taking me out wherever you went, wanting me to hold your hand all the time (until you got Korkor :P), scolding me whenever. All that motherly stuff. No wonder it came to naturally to you when you got Jaeda, ehee. Every single time you leave to return to Australia, it's like a part of us missing. But at least I still have the other YOU, thank God.

We have, too much memories, myriads of hilarious moments. All the good times I recall, there's not one where we're not laughing till we couldn't breathe and like, working our ABS. I know those will never end and I can see many more a moment like those crazy ones in the future.

I can only thank you. Thank you, for teaching me. Thank you for bearing with me. Thank you guiding me to become a somewhat, and I hope, mature person that I am today. Thank you for being there so I can kacau without even thinking twice about it. Thank you for letting me go crazy and hyper and "HUJAAN :D" all on you. Thank you for blasting our so-called clubbing music in the car and singing out loud with me. Thank you for loving me.

So cheers to us, amigas. May we grow old together (but look younger), laugh together, cry together, have 20 kids together!

*YAAAAAM-SENG!*

Day Three: Your Parents

2010-09-06T11:02:00.003+08:00

Photo credits: Pez en el desierto
Dear you two,

Oh where do I begin. We go way back, we do.. :P

You two are as unstable as a girl who's in her time of month and is having a mad time swinging in the middle of a playground called PMS. Sometimes you're as happy as gold and would say yes to almost anything, hence why I take full advantage of that and ask many "questions" (exception to puppies. Why father, why?). And other times you just storm around or it's like as if you purposely wait outside my door for me to come out and start nagging at like.. 9:30 in the AM. And yet, I love you both so much and are to me, like my No.1 superheroes.

...or maybe No.2. Cause I really love Spiderman and, well... you guys can't fly. =/

I know I'm not the perfect child and I've succeeded in being a disappointment too many times to count. I know I can often be as lazy as a sack of potatoes. And I know I wasn't exactly planned and even if I was, I was supposed to be a boy. But hey! Look at it this way- at least I saved you guys from a naming predicament! I mean, come on. If it worked out that way, it'd be like- Sophenie, Sophina, ......Bob.

v____v

And nevertheless, despite all that, the love you've shared was and is never failing. I have all the gratefulness and thanks in the world for you, my papa and mama bear! From changing my smelly diapers (but adorable, RIGHT? :D) to hugging me while I cried on my first day of kindergarten to teaching me throughout the years of studying at home to talks about anything- life, relationships, studies, work.... to now, the present, and to the future. And though I flop majority of the times, but I continue to strive for only one thing -- your pride, in me. Cause that, to me, is like the equivalent to winning the Olympics. Truly.

Pa, never stop making fun of people we know.
Mie, continue to syok sendiri cause it makes me laugh.

Ai lap yoo gaiz! ^__^

P/S: I'm actually considering writing this out and giving it to them.

Day Two: Your Crush

2010-09-05T19:35:00.004+08:00

Dear you,

You probably don't know all of this. Or, perhaps you do.

Perhaps you do know that I always look forward to the day I get to see you. And if I don't, then I get a little disheartened; a little disappointed. But then I raise my own hopes that I'll be able to see you the following week or the week after that. It's a little crazy. Or very. I haven't decided yet.

Perhaps you do know that everytime I DO get to see you, my heart just skips a beat a little. Like, a speed bump in-between a thump-thump. I don't know why that is either. I can't explain how, a quick flash of a glance at you, could push me towards excitement for the rest of the night and make me go home to my sister with a, "I SAW HIM TODAYYY! SMILEYFACE."

Perhaps you do know that when you smile at me, I quietly melt inside- though I keep a straight face or maybe, just maybe, smile a little back. Without even speaking, when it comes to those 2-second eye contacts or laughs, it feels like as if we communicated. And it's funny because, we haven't even said a "Hello" to each other yet.

Perhaps you do know that my omma and I have given you a nickname so that when we talk about you, nobody would ever know. Okay, of course you don't know that but still.

And perhaps you do know that all of this began.. when I first saw you dance.

It's an impossible, ridiculous and childish slightest bit of a crush.
But it's one that makes me smile to myself and feel like a little girl again. *:)

P/S: Hahahaha, oh the drama. *eyebrow wiggles.

P/P/S: People who know nada about this, don't take this too seriously. :P

Edit: Chef, refrain from typing his name in the public lol.

Day One: Your Best Friend

2010-09-04T13:40:00.002+08:00

Dear Obviously You Because Who Else Can It Be?,

Firstly, you probably won't read this until possibly the next month or the next next month or never until I nag you to when I'm old and hopefully not alone with 27 cats. Whatever it is, so help me, I'm following through with this. Because I'm stubborn and awesome like that. OH yeah.

:p

I'm going to make this very short and sweet because I already sent you a long-arse outdated letter and if you don't already know almost everything about me now...you're an impostor.

I miss you. You're like my other half. And it's not easy having your other half all the way across the ocean, thousands of miles and about 8 hours away -- by airplane. And it doesn't help that you're somehow inhumanly nerdy and I know Monash secretly wants to decapitate you and suck your brains out so they keep you busy all the time. If I could choose, I'd definitely bring you back here so I wouldn't have to wait for months or years just to see you or DAYS just to even talk to you. Then again, that's the funny thing about us. No matter how long that interval is, it somehow feels like nothing has changed at all. And nothing really has. We're still as close as banana split. Oh the irony, hurhur. ^_^v

And yes, I still love you. Almost as much as I love Rain. Almost. ;)

Here's to you coming back! More sleepless nights, more fangirling, more talks about our future, more unhealthy food, and hopefully, more piano duets. CHEERS. YOU OWE ME A LETTER BTW.

P/S: KATE FORSYTH RELEASED A NEW BOOK OMG. And I haven't gotten wrinkles yet! Hallelujah! (It is supposedly a sequel to Starthorn Tree so that's why I'm spazzing)
P/P/S: Look at the pic! Don't we look SO KYOOT?
P/P/P/S: Cher looks like a man.

Wake Me Up When September Ends

2010-09-03T14:11:00.002+08:00

Hello. Again!

1) Bake
2) Day trip to Genting
3) Day trip to the beach
4) Day trip to KL
~~5) Go to the gym more~~
6) Farious Five sleepover
7) Cook, at least, 4 3 meals
~~8) Find awesome gladiator slippers~~
9) Sunway Lagoon? :D
10) Visit GRC
~~11) Go to Action City and hug the rabbit soft toy again~~
12) Icecream with So-Called
~~13) Reread Frank Peretti's "The Oath"~~
14) Get Pride & Prejudice & Zombies
~~15) Hong's dance class for 2 weeks + continuously after that~~
~~16) Relearn To Zanarkand piano collection~~
17) Relearn People of the North piano collection
18) Write, something....anything.
19) Meet-up with old GRC gang
20) Clear up nonsense in laptop (why have I not done this yet -.-)
~~21) Buy facial stuff~~
22) Write 30 letters in September
23) Breathe (still a work in progress)

SO, I mentioned "Write 30 letters in September". I actually found out about this whole 30 Letters thing on Tumblr and found it interesting so I decided that I'mma do it too! at least, it gives me something to write every single day. And since there are 30 days in September, it's perrrfect! (Though I'm going to have to double post once or twice, seeing as it's already... the third... :/)

Basically, I'm supposed to write a letter of whatever length to 30 different people in a list that I have to follow. I'll post the first either tonight or tomorrow. It's no dramatic-serious-make-you-teary-&-choke letters so, no worries. ;)

Oh by the way,
birthday post downstairs. :)

9 Everlast + 9 Collmates = 18th Birthday :)

2010-09-03T11:09:00.006+08:00

My 18th was le super awesome. Yes, that's the heart and core of this whole post because it really, truly was. It was, possibly, one of the happiest days of the year for me. Nothing like the bunch of people you love the most all being there for you in one night. :)

I honestly had no idea what was going on and because, my dad told me that I should have dinner with him and my sister only- you know, family first and all. That's totally normal, I mean I do that every year. Then my sister makes me wear her dress, I follow them to Bangsar, she leads me to this Italian restaurant and the next thing I knew...

"...SURPRISE!! / HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!"

My jaw literally dropped, seeing a whole lot of familiar faces. And looking further behind,

A few of them were there too :) :)
That was definitely the highlight of my whole night. That exact moment of walking in and seeing all of them. Ahhh, gila happy! All thanks to my sister, my beloved ah ma and my hao pen you. Mucho loves ♥

The Farious Five (+ Chef Rodriguez)

Hao pen you :)

The So-Called bestie :)

..and not to forget, SEH LAM!! I have a picture with him, DO YOU!? :Dv

And yes Vonn, I saw your comment and after fully analyzing the toy, I can confirm that THIS,

is indeed a small DWAEJITOKKI! :D

Spaz. Kind of.

2010-08-31T17:32:00.003+08:00

HAI.

TEEHEE!

I love Mac. I've always loved Mac and always will love Mac. It's the simplicity, yet the class and sleek beauty, of its design. It is its usage methods. It's how it makes every single thing look ultimately sexier. So since my dad got a new one, how can I NOT play with it?

My sis and I went a little crazy.

Yeah, just a little.

Really.

Nehehehehe!

Now, if only I had big eyes...

P/S: Birthday post tomorrow. It was, epic. :)

Hibye

2010-08-27T01:13:00.004+08:00

Hello.

And bye. :p

I'll update properly soon. Pinky promise.

PS. Whoa, it totally did not occur to me that we're 4 months away from next year until I read it in Vonn's blog. Dearlord, where did the time go? It didn't just fly. It bought the first ticket on the X-15 jetplane and zoomed right over the moon.

Honestly. It's scary.

Kokoro Family

2010-08-23T02:15:00.003+08:00

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.

And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you.

I love the Cupido doodoll second to my piglets. And that's saying a lot.
Mucho loves to you each of you who got me these. You know who you are, :)

PS. Again, a very happy birthday to Ju-san and my beloved omma!
PPS. ...I forgot what I wanted to blog about. D:

No Life- Understatement

2010-08-19T13:47:00.004+08:00

Hmm, how do I start this.

I woke up today feeling like how I have been for, oh I don't know, as long as I can remember-- with a sigh. It's like waking up and knowing your goals go as far as brushing your teeth and washing your face. After that it's just black, solid void; like the gap in spaces that you're just expected to fill. Nothing like a day without purpose.

It's a love-hate thing, I guess. I could live and bear with it because, aren't there just some days where it's totally fine to lay around and feel like a hobo? I mean, I'm pretty sure I can clearly recall a number of times when I appreciate jsut watching TV, in an oversized tee and munching on oreos. Sometimes that just feels so right. Then again, there are other days like today, when I lack something. I lack the drive, I lack the mood, I lack.. just about everything. It's waking up not looking forward to something; not even to someone.

(Okay, this is irrelevant but I'm watching MTV Hits now and, is it just me or when that Tokio Hotel guy sings "Dark side of the sun", it sounds like when Shang, from Mulan, sang "Dark side of the moon"? o_o)

I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss rising up to the morning and having to stress about studying or assignments or, simply just going to school. I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss having my mom around to nag me and get me going, getting annoyed just a little. I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss my niece barging into my room and running away with my piglet. I'd also be lying if I said I didn't miss having those tingly feelings about someone and getting all fangirly, like your life revolved around him.

I miss all those things, and more. :'(

Honestly, a lot of times I wonder what's wrong with me and it takes so much to keep me from saying, "Everything". I don't know. My thoughts are just so, jumbled up and all over the place these days.

Well. At least there's ONE thing worth anticipating in my everyday- when The Wife comes back. :D

Anyway, other less miserable points of interest:

Work is beginning to become not as much of a pain anymore. Mostly because I've been on the same shift as Zul and Umi, the two people who keep me from possibly, dying. :) Plus, there are funny stories now and then. For example, there are red alarm system stickers on some of the price tags but somehow, a lot of customers like to ask if they get discount for those. -.- OH OH, and some guy tried to grab a pair of shoes and run out but, my friend caught him. And she's a girl lol. Win :D

So I recently discovered another manager of mine. Seriously, I'm beginning to lose count of how many we have at Zara. It's like the store room is giving birth to them. But anyway, he's this short Chinese guy and he snorted laughter at me just because I told the cashier that I didn't know how to contact the branch at Midvalley because like hello, nobody taught me to. It's like taking a baby chick and throwing her out the window and saying "FLY, BIRD." Seriously, it's just those small things that are so- hm, pissing off.

I haven't done a single thing on my to-do list. Dear lord, I'm worse than that greased up deaf guy from Family Guy.

I've been watching this Korean kids' show in the morning, that teaches Mandarin. And I just realized that I learn and remember the Korean more than the Chinese. :p

Recently I've actually been writing quite a bit. And by writing, I mean I get an idea, I start with the first two sentences and then lose focus and inventiveness after that. I'm so brilliant. *heavy like, elephant triplets heavy, sarcasm*

It's 2:39PM and I just realized I haven't eaten anything yet.
This is such a, glum day. :/

For The Hols

2010-08-16T10:58:00.001+08:00

Things to do during sem break:

1) Bake
2) Day trip to Genting
3) Day trip to the beach
4) Day trip to KL
5) Go to the gym more
6) Farious Five sleepover
7) Cook, at least, 4 meals
8) Find awesome gladiator slippers
9) Sunway Lagoon? :D
10) Visit GRC
11) Go to Action City and hug the rabbit soft toy again
12) Icecream with So-Called
13) Reread Frank Peretti's "The Oath"
14) Get Pride & Prejudice & Zombies
15) Hong's dance class for 2 weeks + continuously after that
16) Relearn To Zanarkand piano collection
17) Relearn People of the North piano collection
18) Write, something....anything.
19) Meet-up with old GRC gang
20) Clear up nonsense in laptop
21) Buy facial stuff
22) Write 30 letters in September
23) Breathe

That's about it. For now ;)

Bloop, bloop

2010-08-12T11:28:00.005+08:00

I've been coming to this page everyday for the past few days and I stare at it for about 5 minutes, trying to conjure up any blogpost of doom but to no avail. I swear, my life is not that boring. I usually tell myself it's just that there's nothing to write about but then 10 seconds later, I realize that I'm lying because hello. I write a billion and one things in my diary. Though mostly irrelevant and me going on about a really hot guy I saw the day before...but still.

Oh yeah. And I saw a really hot guy the day before. :D

So, anyway, my mom left for Australia a few days ago and she'll be there for the next two months. Initially, I really couldn't be bothered with the chores of cleaning the house. Now, I still can't be bothered. :p But I'm getting there. The only thing is that I feel so tempted to NOT, feed her fish. There are just like, 5 of them in the tank and I just have this thing against them for two, very significant reasons:

1. Fish aren't real pets. Screw it okay, if you can name your bloated goldfish as "Bubbles" and feed it and stare at it and watch it jump out of the tank and then praise yourself cause you think you trained it to jump and then realize 3 hours later that it just committed suicide. Pets are meant to be shown love and you do that by playing with it, pampering it, cuddling it, etc loving things. Can you take your fish for walks?

I didn't think so.

2. I had an angel fish named Sheldon Cooper who died tragically ~~when he jumped out of the tank and committed suicide~~. Which you would remember in this post last year.

And no, he was not trained to do that.

My mom refused to buy me another angel fish. I didn't think so considering the fact that she was celebrating Shelly's death. She thinks he used to bully her other smaller fish. I already told her he was the god and master race fish and all the fish in her tank should worship him but nooo, somebody wouldn't listen... :/

Oh well. That just goes back to my first reason: Fish are food, not friends.

...the sharks in Finding Nemo lied to you, seriously.

UN-bracefaced! :O

2010-08-06T00:21:00.003+08:00

After two years, guess who doesn't have braces anymore?!

KAH-CHINGGG!
(ignore slightly constipated face plz)

PS. I don't think it really matters here cause I rarely smile with my mouth open anyways lol.

Family Guy Love

2010-08-03T02:38:00.003+08:00

HAHAHHAHAHA. Ohhh, I love you, Family Guy :)

My Lazy Update Pt. 3

2010-07-29T13:27:00.003+08:00

So I watched Eclipse yesterday and to be honest, I still can't believe I paid to watch that. But anyway, my sister wanted me to teman her so like, okaaaay, sisterly love trumps all. At least, I can safely say it was way better than New Moon because that one was mostly just watching Bella have some traumatic seizure throughout the whole movie. You could've replaced her with a retarded cat suffering from brain cancer and wanting to commit suicide. It would've looked almost the same. :/

If you're wondering if I'm on Team Jacob or Team Edward though (seriously, why teams? They sound like cheerleaders) you lost me cause the second Jasper was on-screen, I was all "HELLLOOOO SEXY! :D" Oh yeah and I was discussing with my sister right, since vampires are dead and all... how do the males get turned on? o_o How would they even.. do it since it's all limp and..

lolol okay, inappropriate question. :p

SIGH. Exams begin next week. I can, do it!

Wanna Make A Movie? :O

2010-07-27T19:26:00.005+08:00

Hello, Awesomes!

Clearly, I was not kidding around when I said I have no mood to blog anymore. I lost my mojo, if I ever had one. :( I just look at this page and I'm all "meh, I'll do it tomorrow". Plus, I'm still working and will continue doing so next month. Le gasp! Yeah, I feel so hardworking. Yay me. :/

Highlights of the past week:

Yesterday, I had to go for briefing which I've not done since I started working. And seriously, sometimes I feel like my managers got a bit faceproblem -_- Like how on earth am I supposed to know how to jot down your kind of notes when I don't even know what you're talking about. I mean, at least explain to me lah instead of looking at my blur face with a not-so-equally LC face and going "What? You ok ah?" Yes, I'm totally okay. I'll just doodle a Domokun for you ok? *kedish.

I was halfway folding shirts near the entrance when I noticed a couple enter with their mentally handicapped daughter. I thought she was so cute cause she'd try on clothes, look in the mirror and laugh.. until she came to me. Her dad pointed out, "See, the jiejie is wearing a nice black shirt. You want that kind?" Then the girl came close to me, looked at my shirt and went "I want try." I was like, O_O dear lord, don't rip my shirt off plz.

My co-worker and I have taken to giving each other funny faces when we pass by. I've no idea why but he started it first so... he's the spaz *cough cough* :D

I FINALLY WATCHED INCEPTION, GAHHHH, IT WAS AWESOME. LIKE, PANTS-DROPPING AWESOME. AND I DON'T MEAN THAT IN A SICK WAY AT ALL. (...or DO I? *eyebrow wiggles*)

Joseph Gordon-Levitt looks like Heath Ledger's twin. I love him. Have my, babies!

I think I've put on weight though I can't really tell but I feel like it. But I think I love food too much to care. Ignorance is bliss indeed.

Woke up three days in a row with a swollen eye, that I look like I'm winking. Each morning, I look in the mirror and go "I look awesome. *wink wink*"

After quite a long hiatus, I decided to continue page 3 and onwards of Dear John. Honestly, I don't usually read books that are solely based on romance but, this one isn't too bad I guess. And, I love Nicholas Sparks because helloo, A Walk To Remember was awesomesauce! But I found it hard to disagree with this:

Nehehehe! Right? Right?? :D

See You Soon Then

2010-07-24T15:30:00.002+08:00

"Passion is passion. It's the excitement between the tedious spaces, and it doesn't matter where it's directed."

"-- it can be coins or sports or politics or horses or music or faith... the saddest people I've ever met in life are the ones who don't care deeply about anything at all. Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there's nothing to make it last."

"...that's when you see a person at his best, and I've found that someone else's happiness is usually infectious."

*:)

You & Me, Snap Snap!

2010-07-23T01:07:00.004+08:00

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Chef and Yau Mak, short bonding time. SLEEPOVER, PLEASE :(

1807
Wayee's 18th birthday at Vince's place.
It rained and we swam. I'm surprised none of us fell sick o_o

Colin! :)

Birthday girl :)

Jerry's weird, big head :) :)

Craploads more of pictures but, I lazy to upload heh :)

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Last day of class, with our seniors. Oh gosh, weird much :(
So we went for futsal. Well, more like, the boys played- and the girls cheered.
Teehee. After that, oh so famous nasi lemak and then home sweet home.

On the way home- the sky was so, pretty.

2207 (AM)
Finally got to have long chat/webcam session with the Wife :)
I miss those so much. Plus she looked so kyooot!

2207 (PM)
Out with the guys and Cherrie.
Jason spotted his minion :O

Teehee.

I Met Jerry's Evil Relative

2010-07-20T17:31:00.004+08:00

Phwoar! I can't update this blog to save my life, I know. But I'm beginning to get so lazy nowadays. I'll try to keep updating though, or else I'll start contemplating about closing down this blog and I'm gonna hear some ngap ngap ngap from some people. ;)

So anyway, you know, there are some mornings when you wake up and feel totally UNawesome and UNrested because something the night before was bothering you so much. For me, the thing that was bothering me was the spawn of evil itself. The baby of doom. What's big and brown and makes everyone wanna either throw up or stab it like the scene in Psycho. The Cockroach.

I saw it run into my room last night while I was happily munching on my Freddos and living life peacefully and uncockroachily. And then I was all, "DEMON CREATURE!" and paranoid all night. ): It ran under my bed and after waiting up for my dad to come home from movie at like almost 3AM, it was just simply dismissed with him saying, "Don't worry lah, cockroaches stay in one corner and don't move wan."

OH REALLY, PA? REALLY? HONESTLY. LYING TO A CHILD LIKE THAT. D:

Well, guess what? I woke up this morning, pretty much confident about that evil thing still resting under my bed. I went to the toilet and ladida, came out, pulled the blanket and then, THERE IT WAS. THAT BROWN SICK EXCUSE OF AN INSECT. WEAGAKLHJTIOAH. I went berserk and called for my mom. All she did was laugh and said it probably slept with me all night.

You guys are the best parents, really. I smell a Parent Award coming.

Anyway, thankfully, it ran out of my room so I chased after it, totally equipped with bug spray and the words "I KILL YOU" practically written all over my face. It ran to a corner in my kitchen and I unleashed my bug-spraying fury on the dude. Now it's dead. And I'm free. NGAHAHAHA!! Good job Soph, good job. ^_^v

I would show you a picture of the dead thing but like, Zoe would probably stab me with her sewing needles. And we don't want that now, do we. :)

Highlights of the past week:

Working hasn't been so bad since, I have the same shifts as my sort-of senior and he's so awesome lah :) He has this don't-be-boring policy so he's always making me chat with him and giving me sweets and, out of all the people working there, he's the most helpful. Like a big brother figure, hee.

I saw my first gay customer! He was trying on women's scarves while waiting for his lady friend to change. It was like, super obvious and he had both his hands/wrists held up midway kinda like what aunties do when they hang their bags above the elbow. Or when dogs beg for food. Or bunnies. Bunnies are so cute, :O

Movie with Vonn! and I didn't get to see her drive off. Sadface, ):

On Sunday, we celebrated Wayee's birthday. Had a lot of pool-pushing, picture-taking, and *cough cough* spin the bottle moments. Ohgosh. I'll post more pictures in the post.

Oh dem. Work soon. Guh D:

Lens? Cup? Or Both? :O

2010-07-16T12:35:00.003+08:00

So so, my sister finally came back from Australia this morning and of course, the most exciting thing about family members coming back from other countries are the things they bring back for you. Right? :D DON'T DENY! I know what you look at the second they come home. Luggages first, faces later. *eyebrow wiggles*

So guess what my sister bought me?

......
......

.... :O!!!

Ohmycheese, right?!

Now now.
Guess what else?

......
......

..... :D!!! HAHAHA!

So Fly To The Sky

2010-07-15T02:25:00.005+08:00

*Peace!*

NO MORE ASSIGNMENTS AND PRESENTATIONS!!

NGAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

......for now.

Back In Black

2010-07-11T17:59:00.006+08:00

I dubbed today Assignment Day but I only started at 4PM. Fail. Now, I'm stressing to finish up all three group assignments for our presentations this week. But, in the words of Barney Stinson: "Whenever I feel stressed, I just stop being stressed and be awesome instead. True story." ;D

So as I posted before, recently I've started working. I won't say where but I think you'll be able to guess soon enough. Or maybe not. Because I like being vague like THAT. NYEHE. Anyway. Moving on to stuff that happens during work.

That's me and my deathly excited face \(-_-)/

Everytime I wear my "uniform", I feel like I'm going to a funeral. Well, it's work so the depressing part is kind of the same, I guess. :p And I specially had to get black shoes just for this. Damn you, conformity.

I work four nights, about 20 hours a week. And all those weekdays, even during day time, there are a never-ending flow of people coming in to shop. Dear lord, don't you people work nowadays?!

Work is making me a little racist. Then again, I'm against all races equally. I'm such a good citizen of the world lol. *peace*

People-watching is fun :D

OH YEAH. If I haven't been emphasizing this enough already... I HATE PEOPLE WHO KACAU AWESOMELY STACKED PILES OF CLOTHES. SERIOUSLY. DROP DEAD ALREADY. D: I totally know now how that guy in FOS feels, who looked like he wanted to light himself on fire when a lady messed up the whole T-Shirt table section. I can stand by the table and fold all 10 piles of shirts for an hour and a girl just walks in, sabotages 5 piles in a second and NOT take any shirt at all. Honestly speaking, I can say that when I shop, I usually pick out clothes neatly and fold them back. The frustration, is heart breaking.

People who messed up the shirts in my section: 63. I had the on-going conversation in my head like, "Hi lady. Are you gonna be number 7? Are you? Are yo-- oh. No. Really. Come on, number 7. Really. Why. Why you do this to me."

It's because of those self-convos that I sometimes smile to myself. I think maybe that's why the full-timers don't talk to me much. They're probably wondering who's the scary smiley girl o___o

Oh, and yes, the full-timers don't talk to me all that much. Mostly cause I'm young, I'm Chinese, and I'm a part-timer. Also I can barely speak BM to save my life. I think my knowledge of it and French are about the same :/ And, they didn't even bother about me on the first day except for two people. So I made a point to be friendly to the next part-timer I see and I did. Now we're friends and on the same shift too, :)

Working in the fitting room area's the best cause I get to talk to customers sometimes, especially foreign ones. Socializing + doing work = awesome.

I love it when I have visitors :)

So, yeah. Work has been tiring and all but sometimes I just have to forget about all that and do it just for the sake of it. I have, a deeper reason for suddenly wanting to work or rather, wanting to since beginning of the year.

I've learnt one thing for sure-
Make the best of what you've got. ;)

Sucker For Happy Endings :')

2010-07-08T20:18:00.003+08:00

They've been playing this song repeatedly at work (more updates about work later) and I found it so cute and motivating :D And you ESPECIALLY need motivating songs when all you do is fold clothes, hang clothes, sort clothes, clothe...clothes.

So go ahead and ask her
For happy ever after
‘Cause nobody knows what’s coming
So why not take a chance on loving
Come on, pour the glass and tempt me
Either half-full or half-empty
‘Cause if it all comes down to flavor
The glass is tipping in my favor

Life gave me lemonade and I can’t imagine why
Born on a sunny day, beneath a tangerine sky
I live life without pretending
I’m a sucker for happy endings
Thanks for the lemonade
Thanks for the lemonade!

Now take your time to answer me
For the beauty of romancing
Is to calm your trembling hand with mine
While begging love to fill your eyes
I can hardly breathe while waiting
To find out what your heart is saying
And as we’re swirling in this flavor
The world is tilting in our favor

I’ve got it made
Rest in the shade
And hold my love
While God above
Stirs wiith a spoon
We share the moon
Smile at the bees
More sugar please
He really loves us after all
We’re gonna need another straw!

Viva La? Viva La?

2010-07-05T01:12:00.003+08:00

....VIVA LA GERMANAAAYYYYYY! :D :D
I'm back for more gleeful-pro-Germany posts, teehee. I'm sorry but I can barely contain my joy when people bring up last night's match. Did you see? Did you seeeee?!

IT WAS 4-NIL WORTH OF EPICNESS!

Ngeeeeeee, *skips around and overdoses on happiness*

My fellow Deutschland supporters

A cincai Netherland-dressed son of mine

And a somewhat-normal Stewie fangirl (too bad you can't see the tee)

Again, I managed to escape being the prey of mosquitoes. I am so loving my blood right now. Besides that, I'm starting work tomorrow, hollerrrr! :D

...okay, the excitement deceives you. I'm actually dreading it, only because I didn't even sign up there nor wanted to work there but got assigned there anyway. Story of my life. But well! Keeping an open heart, an open mind- hopefully no one tries to kill me. Plus, all those hours.. perfect time to learn how to whistle.

..I feel so optimistic already. :D

My Lazy Update Pt. 2

2010-07-03T12:08:00.005+08:00

After 3 months of college, I've picked up a new ability-- I can fly! HEHEHEHE. Okay, no, not really. But honestly, I have learnt something new. I can now recognize the smell of ciggs from like, really far away. Eventhough it's faint, I can still smell it. My parents are immensely amazed and proud of me. *wishful thinking*

Besides that, I've just been lifeless and sick and runny-nosey and watching How I Met Your Mother episode after episode. I swear, I'm so hooked on it like how I was the first time I saw Scrubs. I finished season 4 in two days o___o

..and if any of my group members see this, yes, I've totally been doing assignments as well. *shifty eyes*

Highlights of the past week:

I finally got all my assignments sorted out and most of them are finished. I thought I could breathe fresh air, have a little more lazy time, maybe run out to the mountains with 7 other children and sing, I don't knowwww. But noo, my lecturer just had to give another assignment which is due this week and it's about 1MALAYSIA. Ohcheese. How do you work with a concept you don't believe in so much it's almost equivalent to a leprechaun appearing at the end of a rainbow with gold.

Watched a very, very awesome match between Germany and England with collegemates. And managed to avoid getting a single mosquito bite despite the swarm that was vigorously flying around. :D VIVA LA GERMANYYY!!!

I miss Australia's Kleenex toilet paper. It was heavenly.

My dad is cutting Nickelodeon AND Disney Channel. DISNEY CHANNEL. I mean I know most of the new cartoons suck but still. DISNEY CHANNELLLL. Cut my childhood memories with virtual scissors, why don't you?!

Lewis's bbq last week made me realize how much I miss hanging out with the old gang. I barely see them anymore. ):

Congratulate me, I'm a proud mother of a food baby! :D Thanks to my mother's consent to ordering pizza last night, I went kinda crazy and finished a large pizza and 3 chicken wings. Ohlord. I love you, unhealthy food in all its glory.

I now own, a very awesome Stewie t-shirt. I feel like a very happy fangirl right now.

Say hello to my eyebags. I named them Panda Eyes.

*pulls out hair* STREEEEEESSSSSSSSSS!!!!

Stress because a) I still have a few group assignments, b) I have presentations for the next two weeks, c) I don't really have anything to wear for then :/ and, d) My hair doesn't seem to be growing, hence the pulling of hair. *cries.

Now, I shall go continue my diabolical plan on a few things I'm about to do next week. You shall see soooon, *eyebrow wiggles*

Why, Hello Thar

2010-06-30T02:11:00.008+08:00

Hello you wonderful, awesome people of whom some I don't know of. ♥

I'm sorry that I've not been updating as much as I want to, recently. Seriously though, it's all because of assignments, no kid. I've been swamped with it and I've never written as much as I have in the past month. Though it's kind of a love-hate thing since it's forcing me to put my writing to the test or else I'll just continue being a potato (or in my friends' case, a BANANA) and never push myself to write. But at the same time, it's draining my energy and getting me frustrated at the smallest of details. Note: I'm a perfectionist.

New names I've picked up:

Banana, as stated
Group Leader
Sofa (???)
Chee Cheong Fun
Zhang FISH FUN (??????)

And I've begun responding to them. Ohlord, what's wrong with me.

Also, for the past few days, I've been--get this--watching How I Met Your Mother! :D I know a few people who would be proud of me right now. Cause they are the ones who have been continuously pestering me to watch this ever since goodness knows when. Now I know why. It is, fuh-reakin hilarious. I like so much. Teehee, all the characters are awesome :) *Barney-wink*

Anywho! I'll update more next time, when I'm not possibly falling sick and feeling sleep deprived and dreaming about bear suits. (I really, really want one) Lights out, people!

PS. Don't forget about the formspring. *hint hint* ;)

Robin: Okay, not that I care about this challenge but it's cheating to wear overalls over a suit.
Barney: No it's not. They're not called "over-tee-shirts", Robin. They're not called "over-shirtless-fat-guys who used to come fix my mom's car and then hang out with her upstairs for a little while. No. They're called "overalls" and I can wear them over whatever I want.

Don't Bully Jitterbug ):

2010-06-26T19:48:00.003+08:00

Recently, I've come to realize the perks and disadvantages of having a small car. As everyone knows, I drive an almost 5 year old Kelisa and I love it to death, really, because:

1) It can fit in small spaces. In every nook and cranny, in any small gap, beside longkang, behind single-parking lots, in-between cars, YOU NAME IT, I CAN FIT THAR! :D (Mind you, I'm talking about the car ok, not my driving skills. Please hold off all insults until the next post about my actual, driving) And it's not just in parking. Also when I want to cut in front of other people. Ngek!

2) It's easy to drive. This applies to parking, turning corners, speeding, etc. Small cars are just awesome lah okay, why else do you think Mr Bean drove one? 8D

3) You can trick people. Like, you're driving with your supposedly more "cool" bigger car, desperately looking for a parking space on a weekend afternoon, and then you see one on the next lane. So you get excited, you speed there and the next thing you know, you find a Kancil/Kelisa/Viva nicely parked in there. And I'll be all "YEAAAA, THAT'S ME, DAWG". Then you cry, and go home.

4) It takes 10 minutes to wash. Or half an hour, whatever! Plus I don't have to climb anything to wash the top :D (But if you're way shorter than me then well......i'm sorry.)

5) IT'S KYOOOOT. Even like the Smart Car, which looks kinda like a premature baby, would anytime beat the cuteness of say... an Estima. Huge comparison BUT, my point still stands.

However, I've also come to learn of the disadvantages of having a small car. I mean, not so much 'disadvantage' per se, but there are little things here and there that kinda itches me sometimes. For example, big cars like to bully small cars. ): They see an innocent lamb of a Kancil driving peacefully on the road and then some monster truck comes charging behind, tailgating the whole way. Annoying okeh?!

Plus, recently, I've no idea why, people have found it fascinating to be able to plant their wonderful backsides on the front of my car like it's some free park bench. There have been a few occasions where they leave their stuff there too. Oh and apparently, now's the trend to lean motorbikes against small cars.

Yeah, exactly: "WTF"

Sleep, Come To Me

2010-06-24T23:59:00.008+08:00

I am, so totally productive during class :D

Besides that, another thing that is... not really interesting,

I
NEED
MORE
SLEEP.
~~AND COOKIES~~

D:

Driving Down The Speed Lane

2010-06-20T18:24:00.004+08:00

It's been a crazy past week and I've just been waking up without even a first thought on anything- just like a blank canvas waiting to be painted on. And then as the day progresses, I become more like a canvas that gets painted on and torn off every 5 minutes. Time is clearly not on my side right now. Everyday's like a passing blur and the assignments have just been piling up. Ohcheese, don't even get my started on that.

...TOO LATE. ASSIGNMENTS, GUH. I have a number of it enough to conquer my condo unit if they ever came to life. So many to finish up and to be completely honest, group ones are THE worst. Not because of my members but more of me, having grown up working solo, with my mind so tuned into my own opinions and way of doing things. So having to adjust is already a challenge on its own- don't even have to think of the work just yet. When I do open up my work to do though, I'm all "OOH SHINY RED BALL! :D"

I have wonderful willpower, thank you.

Besides that, another thing that depresses me is the fact that I barely have any time left to write. No creative writing indulgence at all- ZIP. I don't even have ideas anymore. I'm even struggling to type this.
It's official. My thoughts are as boring as the bottom of my shoe.

Highlights of the past week:

We had our first trial marketing paper which was easier than I thought it would be. I really expected that that would be the day I could say goodbye and jump off my college building (though I won't die and would probably have to struggle all the way up to jump off again) due to Daphne staying over and 0% studying was done. Well, 0% if you don't count the 5 minutes of speed reading through notes before class. I guess that bit of "hard work" (...i'm just trying to make myself look less pathetic, tqvm) paid off and I managed to pass. Without... knowing the results..... o_o LET'S JUST SAY, the whole class in general did not fare exactly well resulting in lecturer + disappointment + rage bbq i want to burn your papers, shave your hair and sell it to china. Yep. Not very good.

Seeing my darling GERMANY once again, in the World Cup. Though, no Ballack and the first-timers, I beh tahan but oh well. You just have to accept what you've got, even if it's a guy named Cacau and you just feel like grabbing one of those vuvuzela thingies and throwing it at him. Or the person next to you. Whatever suits your taste.

I've been eating waaaay too much recently. I get food cravings so easily now, it's not even funny. I'd like to blame it on raging hormones but um, I don't think you get cravings when you have raging hormones. (OR, DO YOU?) I don't even know whether I have raging hormones right now. I just feel like I'm pregnant and I'm feeding for two.

I finally got to watch Toy Story 3! It was as awesome and emotional as I anticipated it to be. I love you, Pixar.

I CAN HAS NEW TEEVEE AND ASTRO BEYOND NAO :D And omg, my new TV is sexy beyond words. It has a direct USB port so that basically means I can now just download and watch any show/movie that I want on my big backside of a TV without having to plug in any extra cables and all that ma fan shiznit. *breathes* I CAN LIVE ON MY COUCH NOW, ISN'T THAT GREAT? :D :D

Pikchas! of the past week (just a few):

What happens when Daph and I don't get enough sleep.

I was kinda running back and forth my college friends and GRC friends.
I actually felt really bad. I'm sorry, you guys ):

Sue Anne and Wayee getting a load of our bags ;)

Javen! :)

I liked this until I realized the longer I looked at it,
the weirder it seemed. Now I don't like it so much. D:

Oh, and, Happy Father's Day to all the super dads out there! No, they're not perfect and yes, they certainly do have THEIR days but I've spent enough years with children of all ages to know they are more than enough to handle. So I am truly thankful for mine. :)

And now, I shall go watch my sexy TV and drool over Kimora's life kthxbai.

Best Friend

2010-06-19T00:09:00.001+08:00

I have this friend.

A friend that I've known practically even before I was born. I grew up with and spent a lot of time with, especially when I was a child. Though, slowly less and less as the years caught on but nevertheless, still a friend I never failed to fall back to. A great comfort when I was as a little as a year old and until now, 18 years later.

A friend that never disappoints, never lets down and is always there, no matter what and where. Doesn't exactly have a shoulder to cry on but has similar qualities nonetheless. Even better, actually. I can talk to 24/7, though, it never has a word to say but its quietness and presence are the sole pillars of support in my life.

A friend I can go to at any time of the day, who'd always be there, waiting. I know it'll never leave me, never desert me. Sometimes it feels like that friend has left for a while, but I know it'll return anyway. I tend to suffer without it.

A friend who will still be there even after I'm gone. And a friend I have infinite love for.

That friend is....

....sleep.

Yeah, I haven't been getting enough of my friend! ): Or maybe I have, but I've been busy running here and there for the past few days, it's burning out my energy. Then again, it feels good to actually be "active". Doing things- always on the move. In a way, it's not so bad.

At least, I can safely say that I'm having a good time. :)
More photos to come soooon.

Deutscher Fussball-Bund!

2010-06-15T00:30:00.005+08:00

OHCHEESE, YESSS! WC IS HEREEE!

It has come to this time again. After 4 years of having to endure the long, painful wait... IT'S FINALLY HERE. WHEE. *hyperventilates and chokes* It's funny though, how fast the years seem to fly by, everytime World Cup is here. I remember when I was 14, I told my sister, "Oh gosh. I have to wait till I'm 18 to watch again." And tadumm! Here I am, 18, braceface and all. :)

Also, still faithfully and loyally supporting my sexy, GERMANS!!

I was telling a friend the other day that, it's a 'cute' little story- how I came to like Germany. It all started with a newspaper. And a picture of Michael Ballack. ;)

I was 9 years old and in Australia at the time. During that holiday, my sister and I kept hanging out with this "korkor" who was willing to take care of us many times. And since then, I was so tiny and ADOWABLEEE *OH TEEHEE*, he liked to carry and pamper me lots.

HENCE, I FELL. MY FIRST LOVE! NGAHAHAHA.

Okay no. But I had a little kiddy crush on him ok. Though I guess I should get to the point; he looked almost exactly like Ballack. Seriously, no shiz. Thus, with all the love and curiosity stored in my childish being, I decided to watch World Cup. JUST to see Ballack. Then I came to like other players and their style of playing football and ladida other passionate boring things.

Good story eh? ;D

Anywho! I'm looking forward to many hyped up nights of munching on snacks, cheering and walking zombie-faced into class the next day. My lecturers would, totally understand. :/

Ever Since College Started, I've Been..

2010-06-12T17:40:00.006+08:00

Doodling in all my classmate's notebooks

Waving at strangers on escalators

Squatting wherever and whenever

Trying to hide from the camera
(but failing, as YOU CAN SEE)

Falling asleep easily

Squinting my eyes
(chyeah, Soph, like as if your eyes aren't small enough)

Doing peace signs

Being all kinds of silly in class

and, Smiling :)

Recently...

2010-06-09T20:18:00.004+08:00

0406
Ohmahbeans, Edmundser shirt so sexayyh.
Thank you, mama bear!

0506
Starbucks, Daphne Lee! :)

0606
Chef, Ah Ma, Meggu- and Chef Rodriguez ♥
Blood is thicker than water? ;)

0706
The Twin Power sleepover and swimming session.
Because swimming at night and chasing other people away-
so much more fun ;)

0806
Happy Birthday to the sister and double combo of grilled lamb!
OMNOMNOM.

Proper updates soon soon soooon. :)

Girls And Friendly Rapists

2010-06-06T15:04:00.001+08:00

So I was reading the newspaper this morning, and usually you know, you go for the articles with the most interesting headlines first. Like you would skip something that said "Royal couple graces show" but your eyes would go to something like "Girl who nabbed snatch thief with her ninja kungfu integrated moves and poked him with color pencils until he couldn't tahan and decided to jump off building". Right? I know, totally.

(Okay, not exactly, but she DID nab the guy unlike the other hundreds of people who'd just stand and watch and go, "Zomg, look! Somebody, buy popcorn so we can stand here and watch that guy fight that lady for her purse!")

Anyway, the first thing I saw was Three 17 Yr Olds Claim They Were Molested By Rapist Taxi Driver. And I normally read these kind of articles first so it will fuel my rage and anger towards idiotic horny men like these and make me feel like being all IP Man and hunt them down. So yeah, I was reading and thinking DEATH TO TAXI MAN! until I came to the part where it said,

"However, once the man lured the girls into his house, he would reveal his true nature to them."

What.
The.
Frack.

The girls didn't say he forced them. And they said he was sweet.

Wait, hold up. SWEET?

Firstly, it doesn't even matter whether he has been fetching you constantly back to your house and you somewhat trust him. You don't freaking go into some random taxi uncle's house willingly just because he was a 'smooth talker'. Wth. That doesn't even sound right. He practically has Paedophile written all over his forehead. What, did the girls think they were gonna find this in his house?

And the first 3 girls were already raped, the second 3 girls STILL humor this guy. Seriously, girls -- young and old alike -- these days are just asking for it. They might as well just run down the street naked, screaming,

SIIIIIGHHHHH..

....
....

My Lazy Update :)

2010-06-05T23:59:00.003+08:00

The other day, we had a random English exercise and I was teamed up with- oh gosh.Colin, Waqi, AND Jerry. The three craziest people you could possibly add in the same group. We had to create our own planet and we came up with- Planet Dunno, sand = rice, naked people and, three free chicks to every person. *facepalm.

Yesterday, our pc lecturer decided that it was Revision Day which, basically translated to us as, Do Whatever You Want As Long As You Keep Quiet Day. :D We managed to kill two and half hours doing... goodness knows what. I know I was busy working my pro artistic skillz on Paint (don't playplay), there was food and chatting, and Waqi got frustrated trying to get Daphne and me to read Mandarin. Teehee. HENHAO! :B

I can confidently say that college days are starting to get better :)

People will probably think I'm being a big sap for saying this, but I think I'll totally miss my seniors when they leave. :/

I am, so psyched that my beloved Ah Ma has finally completed her O Levels with all her best, no doubt. ;) Plus this means that we can FINALLY have our sleepover that I've been craving for ages now. Time to get the sparklers, cameras and sleeping bags ready! *bigbig smiles*

I got to watch Prince of Persia yesterday and to be honest, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I kinda expected it to be crap since most people said it was. I'm probably weird, but am I the only person who thought the parkour moves were pretty kickass.. :/

Ahh, I love you guys for humoring me on Formspring. So entertaining lah. Ask more ask more! :D

Writing my to-do list on my mirror has proven to be such trusted help. I don't forget things so easily anymore and heehee, I feel so satisfied when I get to cross off the stuff one by one. Not to mention, since I write directly on my mirror, it looks so 3D when I stand in front of it. Ooooo...

My eyebags are so, panda.

I feel different, somehow. I'm not sure whether it's good or bad different but I think it's leaning more towards the first. Cause I thought that one day, I was just feeling hyper thanks to the yoghurt drink I got but then, I'm still the same way today. Or maybe it's just a phase where I'm infinitely happier but I'm hoping this stretches out to a long time. Nobody likes to see sad face now, yes?

This is, very random but- I like dem syok sendiri everytime I Facebook search Sophira Chong and even after clicking "See More Results Of", there's still only one of me. Small things like these, makes me all tingly and bubbly inside. Mucho appreciation. :)

Okay, I. Need. Sleep. Goodnight, world!

Get Get Your Love

2010-06-05T00:22:00.003+08:00

I am, so hooked. :D

PS. Kitschen is giving me another RM50 voucher LOL. I hope it's not cause they happen to stumble upon my blogpost (they're pretty active online). I read the post back a few days later and realized I didn't write anything good about it. :X

It was a good experience, is all I'm sayin'. And the people there were nicee.

PPS. I'm so bored and sleepy. Ohbeans, FORMSPRING ME LAH, SOMEBODY. ):

PPPS. Digi digi bob bob to the sounddd~

Seeking Joy

2010-06-02T23:58:00.006+08:00

It's been a crazy past few days, and I totally don't mean it in a good way either. Situations that I meant to escape from just kept on catching up to me. It's funny how I was talking to my friends about the lack of drama in my life and tadum- they have just kamikaze-ed right in my face. And of all times too, just after the 30th. Brilliant.

Plus, I've been getting pimples. WHAT'S UP WITH THAT? Damn you, red bumps of facial doom. You ruin me. You ruin meeeeee.

But seriously though, I have.. never had to act happy this much before, ever. Usually it comes with ease; it's a natural thing. Now it takes so much effort to come up with a laugh which just comes off as a worn-out smile. I figured I'd search for comfort in other things- in ignoring, in mixing with other people, in FOOD. But maybe, just maybe, I've been looking for happiness in the wrong places. (Not that other people and food are bad options, of course)

I was reading some stuff online and I came across this verse,

"In Him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in His name."

And that made me realize what I've been missing. The very source where I've always found certainty and assurance; the one place I've been neglecting for some time now.
In You, I found my joy. And In You, I still do.

Judge it how you like but that's the reason why I'm the happy Soph that I am today. :) And I hope it continually proves to be a gentle reminder to me. I refuse to conform to moodiness!

...but maybe except for when assignments are involved.

Then you'll probably find me in a corner, crying to myself. T_T

Annoying Neighbors

2010-05-31T11:49:00.007+08:00

I swear, the neighbors upstairs are trying to annoy the life out of me while I'm trying to do assignments. They're screaming as well. They could possibly be on scooters, trying to escape an attack from a pack of rabid squirrels.

What? You just never know these days.

The First Year

2010-05-30T20:13:00.007+08:00

The shirt you always wore...

Including the last time I saw you:

Now sits on my bed. An opened chest of memories.

We visited you today. We bought flowers too. I sat there, and I missed you.
Sometimes I wonder if you're watching us.

----

Today marks the first year you've been gone. But whether it's 365 days, 145 days, or even just 2, I still miss you. Often even now, I find it hard to believe that I won't be able to see you, pester you, or talk to you anymore. How can I, when you used to be the only guy out of the group who'd bother kacau-ing me online all the time. Funny, I haven't used my limewire since you last asked me to. But I guess I've learnt to let go, though I still hold on to shreds of moments that I'll never forget.

No one could ever replace you. You'll always be our Vernie Vern.

Here's to another year ahead. Here's to you.

04/27/2006 3:03 am:
heyyy what's with the 'miss you' o.O
anyways...FATBOYSLIM!!! CAN U DIGGITTT?

seriously pimped by,
~VeRn~

Missing You

2010-05-28T16:48:00.002+08:00

I feel numb, awkward.
I feel like I'm pretending as if nothing ever happened.

Because if you were to look back, on this day, exactly one year ago, nothing had happened. Yet. And now as I'm just sitting here, waiting, it's like as if I'm living in an odd gap of time.

So, since it's not just there yet, I'll save the words, the outburst, the questions, for then. For now, I'll just stay in this moment, like I have for the past months. Like simple things you can't see, but are heartfelt- the wind, love, or pain- You're here with us, somehow.

I miss you, Lim Yu Vern.

Til the 30th. Here's to you.
.
.

You're A Tiger, You're A... Deer?

2010-05-26T19:23:00.005+08:00

Hello, world! :) I was scratching my head, trying to figure out how I was gonna push down my previous emotional outburst. Because, nobody wants to come her and see "Good morning, I hate the world" everytime, yes? Yes! And then, I remembered about the THING I had on Monday.

The Thing being the Kitschen photoshoot I had!

So, a few weeks back, Kitschen emailed me telling me they remembered the photo I had submitted for their competition like, somewhere last year? This one:

And so they recruited me, and a few other contestants, to be in some ad for Seventeen Magazine. (So not gonna say when cause I don't want my friends to see it lol) It was kinda funny that the staff and all could recall my picture the second they heard my name. Quite cool too :p But anyway. I pulled Zoe along with me cause, I had a gut feeling that I knew I'd regret if I went alone.

And as sure as I was, I probably would've regretted. BIG TIME.

Ohgeez, it was SO boring and tiring. We were there from 1:30 till 6 and most of the time was spent waiting around. Well, we got to meet the few others who were there as well but.. I can't really remember their names anymore.... :/ It's totally fine though, cause I'm pretty sure they don't remember mine either. Ever since I started college, I stopped expecting people to, after they meet me the first or second time. Somehow, Sophira just doesn't quite pass the memory section. D: Bummer.

So, we had to choose our own clothes in the store. It was either that or we had to let ELAINE choose. (Note- look Chef! S/He's in my pikcha! HAHAHAHA. Ohlord. I hope they don't see this) And, I was the only girl who chose pants, no surprises there. They also tied up my ponytail so high and sprayed so much hairspray, I looked like some perky cheerleader high on crack.

After that, make-up. After make-up, more waiting.

Individual photos were taken, we joined Vonn to lepak around while waiting for our turn again, talked, popped back to the store. And throughout the whole time, I was praying hard that I would get something out of this. Like, MONEY? Or free clothes. :D

I like free things ehehehehehe.

We took quite a lot of shots. o_o And after we were FINALLY done, I dropped them back at Vonn's place and came straight home. Gosh. I felt pretty dem tired after that.

Oh, and after that whole gruelling process, guess what we got?

....RM50 voucher that expires this Monday.

*kedish.

Hear Me Out Once

2010-05-24T10:34:00.003+08:00

Good morning, world.

It's only 10:08AM and I'm already sitting here, wondering if I'm actually a good person or not, at all. Whether the nice things said to me are even meant at all. Basically, being doubtful.

Is it such a hard thing to see me being happy? Does it give people like adrenalized shots to have me put down or become miserable, as soon as something actually good happens to me? They must be thinking like, "Oh let's screw her over since she's so vulnerable and feels guilty and bad and everything's her fault all the time. Easy target."

Oh, that's not what they're thinking?

Well, that's how I feel.

I choose to be cheery all the time because I've learnt it the hard way that being moody doesn't lead you anywhere. I choose not to be "reveal-all" with my issues because I've grown up being able to manage on my own. But perhaps, being that closed up has its downfalls.

Because apparently, I've been forgotten as someone who has feelings too.

----

Again, good morning, world.

Time to begin my day, with a "smile".

I'd Do It All Again :)

2010-05-23T18:38:00.007+08:00

Sunny Sunday afternoon- being a sleepyhead despite the fact I just woke up a while ago from an intended one-hour sleep which ended up becoming two. Now, how did that happen, even with my alarm on? :/ Life's greatest mysteries.

Randomities and photos throughout. *peace*

Friday was spent in OU right after class finished. When Julian asked me, "What did you do from 1 to 7 there?" I realized I couldn't really answer him cause.. what DID we do??? If I said we just walked around for all those hours, I'd sound like I've completely lost it. So to nullify that, I'll just whip out the old saying and say, time flies when you're having fun. ;)

Note: STOP, SPENDING, MONEY. ON FOOD.

On that Friday, my student ID double-scratched my leg until it bled. Not only is it ugly, IT'S EVIL TOO. OHGEEZ.

As my friends would've noticed, I've begun to list A Happy Thing everyday. At least one. Because somehow, finding the frustrating, irritating bits in my day is so much easier and, why should that be? I go around telling my friends to appreciate the tiniest things in life and yet I'm oblivious to those things myself. Maybe, just maybe, in time, searching for the "happy" in everyday will become a habit rather than remaining as a chore.

Happy Thing #5- You. :)

Recent meet-ups with old friends is making me smile big bigggg! Yesterday I went to watch Robin Hood with Julian. After 5 years, the boy has not stopped poking and bullying me. WHAT ABUSE IS THIS ): And then after, with Roberts! And a new friend, Ian. :) Tomorrow, gonna see Megs and Zoe. And Tuesday, Josh. WHEEEE! *runs around in circles*

.....*still running around in circles*

:D I have the best kor in the world, tqvm!

And to conclude, I've successfully influenced my friends to sit at random places and play the game that I've only ever known as "set set set, bom bom bom". This feels so, awesome. EHEHEHE.

I'd better go before I start hyperventilating. :O

...I Love You

2010-05-20T22:37:00.004+08:00

Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper I love you
Birds singin' in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me

Say "nighty night" and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me

Stars fading but I linger on, dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger til dawn, dear
Just saying this

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you
Sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you
But in your dreams, whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

I'm officially hooked to Glee's rendition of this song.
Kevin McHale FTW :)

Not Only Sugar Brings Happiness

2010-05-19T20:13:00.010+08:00

It's... insane, the things I do in the early, cold hours of the morning when I can't sleep. ;)

So I'm beginning to feel the pressure of assignments, especially since my beloved group had it upon themselves to appoint me leader. And I think I'm like, the youngest in my group? Way to go, people! D: I barely know what to do despite the fact I wrote down all my points. And everyone's like, "Soph, when to meet?" or "What are we supposed to do now, Soph?" or "SOPHY, ARE YOU RELATED TO THE BRAND SOFY?"

OMG. People, I'm not okay. I don't even use Sofy. Rawr.

Anyway, I don't know what's happening to me today. I woke up feeling dead zombie-like and then suddenly, halfway through business class, it was like a breath of fresh air hit me and I was all joy and rainbows and cookies. I still am actually. But I can tell after this passes, I'll be exhausted and I'll probably KO on the bed later. I can already feel my eyes threatening to snap out of its jumpy state.

I like this feeling though. It's almost like "ultimate happiness" (on a more crazy, hyperactive level, of course) and whatever that's said or done right now somehow won't bother me at all. Cause I'm all MC Hammer "You Can't Touch This" 8D

I noticed that I get this sensation at very sporadic times though. I think this time, maybe it's because I'm finally done with the drama and all that went on recently. Could be that, or it's just assignments. Either way equals a not-so cheery Soph. ):

However, don't think I forgot my main resolution for this year-- to be the best I can be in any given situation. So, whether it's in college, with my friends, I'm gonna stick true to my word. :)

And I cannot forget to mention how grateful I am for the buddies I see like almost all the time now. They add so much color to my everyday.

Just like meat, as Max would say. ;D

PS. Whoaaa, how come everyone's suddenly reviving their formsprings again? I want to also! *peer pressure* And it looks so empty cause I deleted a lot of questions lol. Zomg, ask me ask me HERE! :D

Hotness Overload

2010-05-16T17:55:00.004+08:00

I wanted to do a super long photo update on what I've been snapping for the past few weeks but I figured I'll save that for another day when I'm even more lazy to think of anything to type. Heh. Today I'm feeling a little more pumped. It could be the scando chipster I just ate. It could be the book that I just bought. Or it could be,

Aaron Smexy Johnson. :B
Yeah, I finally got around to watching Nowhere Boy, which I downloaded like eons ago. And yes, truth be told, I did download it mostly because I saw that he was in it. :X But! also truth be told, I was interested since it was based on John Lennon's teenagehood and how The Quarrymen began. And of course, The Beatles, but they didn't have much on that. :/

His singing and everything was not bad though. It just makes me cringe at the thought of him and the director getting all chummy while filming that movie. I was honestly hoping that they'd break up or something but now, boom, there's a baby.

WHERE'S THE HOLLYWOOD NEVER-LASTING RELATIONSHIP SCENARIO WHEN YOU NEED ONE?!

*eye twitches*

But anyway, this is what you get when you combine Aaron Johnson and an insane habit of taking craploads of screenshots while watching a movie (not uploading most of it. Your eyes may implode or explode or, whatever. THEY JUST MAY PLODE):

Sexy Face :9

...okay, that's probably the most irrelevant thing BUT, AWWWWW, ISN'T THAT THE CUTEST DOGFACE?? *heart melts*

Oh yeah, and I noticed that I have this unhealthy obsession with wanting to edit other people's work. I remember it started out in GRC years ago when Chanelle let me read an essay of hers and I was biting my lower lip trying to contain myself but I finally blurted out, "CAN I REWRITE YOUR ESSAY PRZ?"

And now I'm doing it for people's assignments. It's probably not a good thing but, I don't mind really. Am I weird o_o

......

Yep, I think I am.

When A Heart Breaks, It Don't Break Even

2010-05-14T23:38:00.006+08:00

Say hello to Machukun and Pichukun :D

Today was fun, hectic, dramatic, stressing, and any other crazy adjectives you can think of that'll make your head feel like exploding just by reading it. I'm sorry, I just don't know what to make of today. I was so down. ):

To add to that, Fish & Co. totally ripped me off. My fish looked like half of a deflated small intestine. It was so small and miserable, my heart was crying. So was my stomach, wth.

I think, on the days that I don't have class, I put on weight. Cause I spend the entire day stuffing my face, literally. I'll have first breakfast, second breakfast, elevenses, then lunch, tea, dinner... omg, that's it. I'm a hobbit.

I'm getting so sleepy it's not even funny anymore.

I sayang my Kor lots. ♥

DARREN'S LAST CHINESE NAME IS KEN HAHAHAHA. :X

I'm so tempted to get a new phone eventhough my not-so dearly beloved one still works perfectly fine (without a space bar, that is). Why isn't it spoiling yettt... D:

I'm going to abstain from salmon sashimi for the next 2 or 3 weeks. Because I refuse to eat wasabi and to get parasites or little worm inhabitants residing in my tummy. If that ever happened, I would be very much tempted to stab myself.

Why does everyone want me to watch Nightmare on Elm Street? I don't want to spend most of the time with a pillow over my faceeee.

I went for icecream with the So-Called last night and we got pulled over by the police lol. But that story's for another day. I'll just let you know that he was let off from a rm300 fine and it was puhretty, epic. :D

And, now that I'm finally feeling more 'me' again, I think I'm ready to fall asleep peacefully.

Thank You God, for smiles. :)

Save Me

2010-05-13T10:21:00.006+08:00

Jun Weng: Teacher, how come I don't get present wan?
Me: Cause you're not a mother ma.
Jun Weng: Then how come you got present?
Me: Noo, it's not mine. I'm just looking at it.
Jun Weng: You're not a mother?
Me: Nooo.
Jun Weng: Why?
Me: Because I don't have a son, like you.
Jun Weng: Yes you do!!
Me: Where got?
Jun Weng: Got! IN YOUR STOMACH!!
Me: O__O

Hee. Sorry for the lack of updates but I've been kinda busy and when I'm here, I'm just too tired. Everyday seems to go a little faster now and I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.

Have you ever felt that life is going too fast for you?
Because, I have. And while the moments of pressure have been increasing, so have the blissfully sweet times when I can just be all smiles and laughs and not worry about zip.

But for now, it ain't that great.

Can I crawl into a hole and die plz.

On a happier note, I had lunch with Julian the other day and he painted me this. Socute! :)

M.O.T.H.E.R.

2010-05-09T19:36:00.005+08:00

So it has come to this time of year again which is almost exactly the same as Valentines Day except it's just for mothers :p Isn't it? You go all your way out to buy flowers or make her breakfast in bed or you search high and low for the perfect present. The only thing is... what happens tomorrow? Is she just as special the next day as today?

WELL OF COURSE SHE IS, DON'T BE STEWPIDDD. :D

No matter how bad or annoying or naggy or WHATEVER you think she is, there's always gonna be one thing she's done ultimately right-- giving life to you willingly. I mean, without her, you wouldn't even have the brains to think she's annoying, yes? But that's not the point. Mothers shouldn't only be appreciated on one day, once a year. Out of the many times she's made you angry, there are double the times when she's been there for you, taken care of you, fed you, spent time on you. And I'm speaking this for myself to remember too.

I was listening to the radio the other day and there was an interview going on. And they had asked what is the hardest, most difficult job in the world.

"Being a mother."

And I couldn't agree more. I help take care of my niece for 3 months straight also my heart and mind are like ZOMG LEAVE ME ALONE, CHILD. But despite that, it's something you all should know, that I look forward to the most.

I shall have a son.
And his name shall be Reyes.
v^______^v

So today the kids in nursery class decorated cookies for their mummies. I made one box too actually, but I ate them HEHEHEHE. It's totally cool though cause I just tell her I ate them for her out of love and she stares at me and I smile at her with my sepet eyes and she then says "what la you" and makes me water the plants. T__T

Three failed attempts to take a 2010 photo with him D:

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"M" is for the million things she gave me,
"O" means only that she's growing old,
"T" is for the tears she shed to save me,
"H" is for her heart of purest gold;
"E" is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
"R" means right, and right she'll always be,
Put them all together, they spell "MOTHER,"
A word that means the world to me.

Out Of The Many

2010-05-08T16:47:00.004+08:00

So, today's one of those (or more like, every) mundane weekend afternoons when I'm left home alone with my Dominos pizza in all its delicious glory ♥ and I'm just flipping through the channels on TV because, let's face it, there's just nothing much to watch anymore. Which is ironic because Astro has like what, a billion and one channels? Psh. D:

*hint hint*
They should start showing Big Bang Theory here, tqvm.

But anyway, I was watching Digi Music's Top 20, or something like that, and the host was interviewing some Malaysian girl who was gonna perform in a second or two. And, the first thing that comes to my mind is to change the channel.

You see, i'm one of those people who does not know how to appreciate the local music scene. Like really. I can't stand Malaysian rock bands or rappers (except CAPRICE. Wooo) or any other music artist. I tend to be very critical and judgmental about local singers cause, I always compare internationally. I know lah, I'm kinda mean in that sense but I can't help it. I just don't like. When suddenly a HUJAN mv starts playing on TV, i'm like OMGWTHBBQ *throws molotov bomb at TV*

But! When the girl and another guy started playing their guitars, it was... interesting. And then she started sing and I was like, whooooaaa. Prettyy voice @__@

She was, awesome. And the song was too. And she's probably one of the few (besides CAPRICE. Wooooo) local artists to give me hope that maybe Malaysian singers aren't that bad after all.

Diandra Arjunaidi:

This wasn't the song I heard just now though. I can't find it. T__T

PS. If you're an aspiring singer, please don't feel offended. I do actually think a lot of people here have good, talented voices. I'm just saying, generally, the "famous" ones aren't that great. It's just my opinion. So don't come and egg my house. Rawr.

One Of Those Days

2010-05-06T11:51:00.006+08:00

This is what happens on days that I don't have college:

*kedish. I dread assignments. I haven't even really started on them but ARGH. DREAD.

On a happier note though, I finally got to watch Ip Man 2 and it was too awesome for words. :D And when I say that, I really really mean it. Cause, I barely like any other Chinese shows. In fact, I don't even really watch Chinese shows much less LIKE them.

...except for when they're so kickass and it's Donnie Yen! :O

And on days like these, when I'm not active; when I'm not walking here and there and talking and busy jumping up-down going "MACHUPICHU!"... I just think too much. I think about what I've been doing, what I have to do, of people. You realize that as you grow older, more and more decisions tend to come crashing down at you all at once?

But yeah, it's not just decisions that's lingering in my mind. I've been missing my other buddies. I know I've been caught up in a whirlwind what with college and my lesupercool new friends whom are becoming so close to me it's like whoaa, miracles do happen. And I couldn't be more thankful, really.

Even so, I miss I miss I miss.. Everlast! Chef, Ah Ma, Meggu, Ju-san, you hear me?! ): Especially since it's coming, to that time of year again. And, I don't know. I've got so much on my plate of thoughts. But for now, I just miss you guys.

And I miss you, V.
Very very very much.

An Impact Or A Fleeting Memory?

2010-05-02T13:20:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wonder about the effect I have on other people's lives. Family, friends, acquaintances... But specifically, strangers. See, it can take you as long as five seconds to look at someone you're passing by on the street or in the mall or whoever's sitting on the table beside you at a restaurant. As long as, by the end of the day, you still remember that person, he or she has already had an effect on your life -- by living in your memory, even if it's just for a while.

This realization hit me while I was having my usual Sunday breakfast with my dad in ______. (Information hidden in case you might wanna stalk me and steal my food. I swear I'd go all Chuck Norris on your arsenal) I've been having brunch there for over two years now but many months ago, I noticed this particular uncle. He was no ordinary uncle. He was kind of special, actually.

The uncle was fairly old; grey hairs, slightly leaning towards being bald, wrinkles and all. And he would always, ALWAYS wear the same thing: a white shirt all buttoned up with the sleeves folded up almost to his shoulders, and shorts and slippers. Also, at all times, he'd have this small black pouch slung over his shoulder like he was carrying a women's handbag. Trust me, if you'd seen him, he would've looked pretty unique to you.

However, it was nothing in his dressing that captured my attention (though it successfully brought smiles to me and my dad each time); rather, it was in the way that he walked and how he looked when he did. His face would always look deeply concentrated, with his eyebrows furrowed into a slight frown. Not in an angry way but more like, there was some thought forever lingering in his mind. And his steps, they never failed to rush. Constantly rushing here and there. Nowhere that I knew of but I'm very sure he did because, he always looked like he had a goal, a destination. Kind of like a human version of the White Rabbit in Alice in Wonderland. I'd be Alice, stalking him >:D

Recently though, I've not seen him at all. For maybe, the past month or more. It makes me wonder and honestly, a tad bit disappointed each time he doesn't show up, like I'd expect him to. Almost like worrying for an old friend who's gone missing.

And just like that, I realized -- he's been made an effect in my life.

See, like they always say, "It's the little things that add up to become bigger things" right? and now I know that it may not just be 'things' but more or less, 'people' as well.

So now, I can never sit in a cafe or go strolling in a mall, glance at a particular someone's face and not think, "Hmm... Will that person remember me?"

Saturdays

2010-05-01T15:38:00.003+08:00

Ooh lookie what I found deeply hidden in all the rubbish that's in my laptop.

This is one of the few reasons why I like to read Postsecret. Being able to feel and connect with the good in other people's lives, no matter how minimal it is. It gives me hope. Even just a little. :)

Hellooo

2010-04-29T00:25:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry but, I've been to tired or lazy to update this. I will soon, though! No guarantees, my words will most probably fail you but... I'll definitely find time and "inspiration" to do so.

But for now, I'm having the time of my life!

So I hope you all are too. :)

Laughter: The Best Medicine

2010-04-25T19:06:00.003+08:00

Om nom nom.
I think I'm beginning to dislike the weekends. It feels so much like how I was on the weekdays before I started college. Seriously, how in all that's good in this world did I live O_O I wanna like just, roll on the floor and flail my arms and go "aaahh, eklawjrjaorrhh *rubs face with peanut butter*"

..nope, not a good sight at all.

But on a brighter note, the dear wife of mine introduced me to this blog that's got me laughing til my face hurts and, if I keep reading it everyday, I think by the end of the week, I'll have damn nice abs.

If you've been feeling depressed--as my lecturer likes to say--25/8 (I don't know la, what the heck that means. 25 hours 8 days a week? I wasn't aware that we're living on Pluto now), then you should read..

Hyperbole And A Half.

She's a genius, I love her so much @__@
Plus, she's got awesome drawings too:

Your Story

2010-04-24T11:52:00.011+08:00

Let me tell you a story.
It may be mine. It may not.

It's a short one.
No fireworks, no butterfly feelings.
Just a heart and its beat,
set on an ecstatic yet, heated rhythm.

Once upon a time, there was a girl.
And once upon a time, there was a guy.

She saw him.

And the desire rose in her, to fall.
Deeply, irrevocably.

But she was too afraid to.

...and, I've yet to know the ending.